I want to leave my boyfriend, but I can't and part of me doesn't really want to??

[Losingmybalance]

Basically, I'm 18my boyfriend is 23 and I've been with him about 1 year, he is my first serious relationship and I am with him all the time but I don't think I love him i actually just don't know what I'd do without him, a few months ago I was having a really bad time with my family an I stayed with him throughout that and he helped me financially and emotionally, since then I have moved back into my families home however I still stay at his house a lot, about 2 months ago I went on holiday with my friends for a week and when I was there I cheated on him with someone, at the time I didn't feel guilty and decided that when I was home I would end it with my boyfriend but as soon as I seen him I couldn't, since I got back it was fine with my boyfriend until a couple of weeks ago when he started pushing me round, at first it was just a slap and to be honest I probability deserved it but since then he has been pushing me around all the time and telling me that if I finish with him he will smash my windows and since I have been with him he has completely bulldozed my self esteem, before him I was really confident and always thought I could do anything I put my mind to, but now I don't think I can do anything and I know the best thing for myself is to finish with him as quickly as I can but I am really attached to him and have lost all but 1 of my friends as I spend all my time with him.. If anyone has been in the same kind of situation please give me advice !!! And feel free to ask any questions as I think I might of waffled on abit and it

Might be hard to understand.. Thanks!

[SincereOnlineGuy]

You very clearly need to end this relationship!!!!

 

No matter what the immediate concerns are, END the relationship and look to your family for any help you might need.

 

 

The part of you that doesn't really want to end the relationship is the part which feels like you have invested (your feelings) IN somebody and don't want that investment to go to zero. That is very normal, and it isn't any different even when the person in whom you made those emotional investments reveals himself to be a "zero".

 

Nothing about your actions indicates that you "deserved" to be abused by your boyfriend.

 

If you don't get out now, this will result in your softening your personality up so that any and every guy in the future can push you around and abuse you.

 

It is many, many times easier for an 18yo girl to end a relationship with an abusive boyfriend than it is for some women much further along in life to do so.

 

Leave the bum at once !!!!!

[Sleep deprived]

No woman deserves to get hit by any man this is all the advice I can give you

[Alexanda]

What a jerk! Why would you want to be with a man who hits you and has crushed your self esteem. You need to leave him ASAP.