iheartsuki Posted September 17, 2010 Posted September 17, 2010 i am likely going to be moving soon to where my bf lives after dating him long distance for 2 years. i'm moving from where i grew up, from my family, from a warm, sunny climate where life is easier, cheaper and friendlier....to a place that's colder, expensive and completely different from everything i'm used to. he is not willing to ever move to where i'm from. i'm having doubts about it and, due to a lot of recent fighting, doubts about the relationship.....but mostly i am terrified of leaving my family, especially my mom. i'm really close to her. also, because she has a lot of social anxiety and tends to be a little naive and very sensitive, i feel very protective of her. my grandma and dad live here in the same town but my parents are divorced and when my grandma is gone....she won't really have anyone here to connect with and no family. i'm already anticipating not being able to come home often OR for very long once i have a job up there and this is already causing a lot of anxiety. i've always been closer to my mom than friends and most weekends, when i was away at school, i would drive home to spend the weekend at home. i just can't imagine not being able to get in the car and just go shopping with my mom to unwind or take on diy projects with her or watch tv with her....without a 3 1/2 hour flight, hundreds of dollars, and taking days off from work! i start to think that this is maybe some abnormal attachment issue...but then i also think that life is so short and no one knows what happens next. maybe the time that we have with the people we love isn't replaceable. anyone who is close to their family or parents and has moved away, how did you cope??? i'm already not doing well and i haven't even left!
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