bubbleskeeps023 Posted September 17, 2010 Posted September 17, 2010 hell, i don't know.. maybe some knows me.. i am a 22-year old lady having an affair with a 55yr old man.. we're in our 3 yrs now.. yes, i admit that there are full of heartaches but there are also plenty of great memories and somehow i felt i was loved... there's no money involved.. i'm so much in love with him... and he's my ideal man, he's a great guy... except that of course he's so much married and way too older to me and he have ME... i know time will come that it has to end.. i know he would never leave his family for me.. i know he's not in love with me the way i think he was before.... i know.. but still i cannot leave him.. even he was the one saying i must leave him because he caused me too many heartaches.. who doesn't want a normal relationship?? who doesn't want to take sweet pictures of partners?? who doesn't want phone calls at night asking if you already gone home? who doesn't want to take partner in family gatherings? who doesn't want to hold your partner's hand while walking?? who doesn't want to tell the world that he loves you?? definitely, i'm not... but here i am, still loving him.. i am just waiting for the time that i'll become numb because of too mmuch pain... just waiting for the time that automatically i can let him go... i'm not planning to have another man to love.. actually i think i will not marry anyone at all... i'm so stupid and angry to myself.. i know nothing will gonna happen in our relationship but still i am allowing all of these.. i know i will never have a family on my own... and no guy deserves me... i wish i will reborn to have another life different from this...
greengoddess Posted September 17, 2010 Posted September 17, 2010 This is heartbreakingly sad. You are so young and have your whole life ahead of you. Can you just pick up and move away? You have to get away from this relationship. This just breaks my heart. You are missing out on so much in life. So many friendships and relationships and you are probably false and lying to the friends you do have. They probably don't know about this man. Tell someone in your real life. Please. Beg them to support you and help you end this. They will. I know they will. Do it now. Pick up the phone. Go cold turkey. Never talk to this man again. You deserve so much more with your life.
witabix Posted September 17, 2010 Posted September 17, 2010 Break this off, get away. You are unhappy, and too young to be so unhappy. He has had the lion's share of his life and now he eats yours too. Regardless of the morals of affairs, you need to look after yourself. Save yourself, look how bitter you have become already.......stop. 1
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