dumbass123 Posted September 15, 2010 Posted September 15, 2010 Dear internet, Growing up, until about middle school, my best friend was a girl. Our mom's met when we were infants and we played together ALL THE TIME. She went to a private boarding school on the other side of the country for high school and stayed there for college, going to a well respected school and doing very well. Now she's in Grad School and she's incredibly successful. I'm talking Over the Top well-rounded not-a-nerd but super smart. AND GORGEOUS! She made a film for one of her classes half way around the world (somehow she milks grant money out of this school for all sorts of stuff). Anayway, the year after high school she said she loved me. I was kindof a dick about it, said i loved her too, but what you gotta understand about me is I'm sort of retarded about this **** and plus hadn't been thinking about her because I hadn't seen her in so long. So I guess I blew her off. I talked to her later on and she says she loved me but wasn't IN LOVE with me as she had thought. Flash forward to right now. (5 years later). I realize I'm totally in love with her. It kindof scares the **** out of me because she could have totally moved on. Also you should realize that I haven't done anything important with my life. I did two years of college and dropped out, and work as a salesman. This isn't the worst thing in the world I mean I'm only 23 (an old 23) but she's been winning these ****ing awards for excellence and whatever. I already know I'm not gonna take any of your advice, I'm gonna tell her I love her and make a dumbass out of myself, I just want your general comments so I can sorta gauge what to suspect. Think she's way over me? Also I should point out that the her PHD or whatever she's getting will probably land her in some distant location. ALSO! any advice on HOW TO TELL HER. this advice i will take. Thank you everyone for your comments.
Author dumbass123 Posted September 17, 2010 Author Posted September 17, 2010 OK INTERNET, I'm about to tell her via text message and if this ruins everything than I hold YOU THE INTERNET responsible for not giving me any advice. ALL you had to say was "you suck" or "do it do it!", anything. But no, you didn't give me any advice. I know I said I wouldn't take it but that was a lie. JUST JOKING I LOVE YOU INTERNET. I'll let you know how it goes because I see the views going up so I know you're reading this at least. ALRIGHT here goes....
Author dumbass123 Posted September 17, 2010 Author Posted September 17, 2010 alright i didn't do it. I'm SCARED. i don't want to lose this friendship. Come on people i need to be slapped in the face one direction or the other. please please please give me some advice. I don't want to make this decision in the dark...........................................................................................................................................................
Author dumbass123 Posted September 17, 2010 Author Posted September 17, 2010 i need people who i don't know to judge me, i can't ask a friend about this. just tell me how i come off.
BiscuitXOXO Posted September 25, 2010 Posted September 25, 2010 If I were you I wouldnt' do it. Just because she's successful and beautiful and amazing now. I don't believe that after five years you could just suddenly have a rush of true love for someone you haven't seen in that long. Your best plan of action isn't to just randomly pop out after five years and go, "I love you!" Maybe you could just start talking to her, as if catching up with an old friend, and see if sparks fly. If I were her, I would probably have dated quite a few other guys by now, and haven't thought about you in a long time except as a distant, foolish schoolgirl crush.
Author dumbass123 Posted September 27, 2010 Author Posted September 27, 2010 Thanks for the advice. too late, but thanks for the advice. I'm sure she's dated other guys but I don't think I was a "school girl crush." maybe i was- The tricky thing about us is that I'm going to know her forever, better or worse. I know she loves me it's just whether its like a sibling or romantic. I told her I loved her and the best way to describe how she responded is TACTFUL. She was really almost professional about it so that I didn't feel hurt but also became aware of the OUT of the blue wt****ness about tellling her after not talking for so long. Anway thus my screename. thanks Biscuit, I probably should have waited to hear back but at least, i think, i didn't come off needy... so there's that...
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