LoveTNT Posted September 14, 2010 Posted September 14, 2010 (edited) September 14 2010 2:05pm Bitter-sweet... I just ate. bittersweet Sadness tumbled over, I feel a bit sick to my stomach because I just ate and drank some water and you know how your emotions can stir it all up. I'm doing better than other days, because I know I wont text or call him. Phone call NC.. 11 days, text NC.. 6 days, So I broke the record, haha and know I'm sticking with it, no really I am.That's an improvement, before I'd be lying to myself if I said that. Hard to explain but it's a sadness because I feel like I'm letting go and my mind body and soul is releasing something that use to be so familiar. I think of him and the good times, I appreciate, and I'll let them slip away, and it's ok, I know I'll soon be better than oK, I can feel it.. I don't want him to call me, and if he does I've chosen to ignore it. It's Bittersweet to know that I'm finally not feeling anxious to see him, be with him and show him I'll change. I smirk through the bittersweet sadness, cause I know little by little I'm becoming stronger. What is happening individually in our lives is bigger than us. I wish him well.. That's all you can do and try not to take it totally personal. People make choices in their lives and we can't let it run ours for to long... (Listening to: Sade- King of Sorrow) Break Free Lovelies... Edited September 14, 2010 by LoveTNT Spell check
Author LoveTNT Posted September 15, 2010 Author Posted September 15, 2010 September 15 2010 1:44pm Hopeful/courageous Sunshine, Thank you. Keep humbling myself, keep reaching out to the greater love. I'm hopeful, I packed up all my bags, threw the ones I no longer need out the window of an endless glass built skyscraper, Breathe in and out and I'll continue to wave goodbye, I gather up all my courage wipe my tears and break free...
Author LoveTNT Posted September 16, 2010 Author Posted September 16, 2010 September 16, 2010 4:20pm getting to college campus. Feel sad. Uuugggh, the rollercoaster. I can't stand D. I don't know what I saw in him to f up what we were trying to build, it's much bigger than that now though, as it all came tumbling down. But I gotta keep in mind what is occuring is a part of the master plan, focus I tell myself. Stay strong...
Author LoveTNT Posted October 19, 2010 Author Posted October 19, 2010 October 18, 2010 Rejected/But moving forward His bday passed this weekend, Thank god. It was torture. I reached out and once again proved to me that you don't give a **** about my feelings. You've become selfish. You say your angry. Get over your pitty party.I Hope you're not powdering your nose. That's a turn off. That's what keeps me strong, my morals are worth it.
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