Saudade Posted September 9, 2010 Posted September 9, 2010 My ex and I had an argument 3 weeks ago, both said horrible things and I told him to leave - when I said leave I didn't mean forever. Since then he has ignored me. I wanted to talk to clear the air but nothing. I even did a STUPID thing and sent him a gift - boy did that make me look needy - I regret that one. Folks don't make the same mistake I did He said thank you for the gift and that he needed time and space and wasn't sure what he wanted anymore and silly me wouldn't drop it. I sent two texts after that because I thought after 3 weeks of him ignoring me I thought it was time he at least explained to me what was going through his head. He texted me and told me he'd had a busy day and didn't want to talk and if that's good enough then it's over, although you ended it the moment you told me to leave. I know I messed up, I played a big part in it but who doesn't have arguments from time to time? it takes two right? I feel really sad and angry that he wouldn't even talk to me and tell me why he wanted to end it. It's day 2 of NC and I won't contact him again, too much pride now. I tried to say sorry, I tried to fix it but no good. I am left with this big burden of guilt that it was all me. I am lost but trying to cope. I am making plans, buying things for me and TRYING to not think about it. I guess I struggle to except that after a year and planning to marry he would just walk away like that, like he never excisted.
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