onthebrinkofitall Posted September 7, 2010 Posted September 7, 2010 I broke NC after 24 hours.. ugh.. stupid, I know. Worse yet, I went out with my STBXH last night.. what was I thinking?! I feel alright today.. but I wonder if it's just because I saw him last night.. like getting a little fix or something. Not sure. I talked to a friend this morning and she said she'll be my "sponsor" throughout this mess.. so whenever I feel like calling him, I can call her.. which is something I didn't have before. On the bright side, I did have the strength to take down pictures I had of us still hanging up.. did that this morning after the convo with my friend. Also, read some post on here that said something about boxing up everything that reminds you of your ex.. so that's what I'm working on today.. finding photos, coffee mugs, knick knacks.. anything he got for me or that reminds me of him. I'm gonna box it all up and hand it over to my mom. I can't get rid of it yet.. but at least it'll be out of sight and not accessible. I feel like I'm making progress.. it's just going slowly and I seem to be doing a lot of backtracking. Doc appointment Thursday for anti-depressants and then to see a counselor next week. I want to get through this.. I still just feel so weak with him. Glad I have LS to vent/get support, understanding, advice. This website is my lifesaver.
1/2moon Posted September 7, 2010 Posted September 7, 2010 Be kind to yoruself. you are human..one day at a time. You are taking right steps in having decided you want to get over this....that is good cause your determination will help you along with IC. Good luck...keep posting when need be.
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