Mad @ the contact we had

[Nappeal]

The ex and I had some friendly text banter back and forth all day yesterday. While I was getting in bed things were the most active I guess, but only friendly...no booty-call type convo. It was nothing signifigant, but contact nonetheless. I know I shouldn't have allowed the contact (especially since I initiated it!), but being I'm preg, I've sorta convinced myself its OK to talk every once and again Anyway, I really wasn't expecting to go back into full contact by ANY means, but I'm feeling a little bummed and offish since we've had no contact today. Just had to share

[106rob]

i bet you feel like your going back down the ladder now then? same as me!

 

i contacted the ex on saturday and since iv not had her off my mind! (she didnt get back to me and i did bump into her and got a wave but she wouldnt look at me )

 

im now saying to myself its not worth this pain i feel everytime i try to make contact and if i get rejected i feel bad....if she plays ball it gives me false hope (problalby what you are feeling now?),so its a no win situation

 

is it him your pregnent to? if not then NC is obv impossible for you i suppose if not then i would seriosly do what iv done and try and cut it loose from there,no number for her again now so i cant even if i wanted to txt her

[Nappeal]

Yea, he's the father of this pregnancy, so no NC but def LC. I really wish I could delete his number, but I've instead put it under a very strange and uknown name so that I don't see his actual name and get those butterflies in my stomach. I think the fact that he responded was good (!!), but also very bad; I didn't get too set back from the contact, but it did kinda put my hopes up...NTM I feel like he is actually just obligated to answer me. It wasn't something he did cuz he wanted to , KWIM.

[106rob]

yea i did that with my ex changed her name to something else haha!

 

and for the sake of the baby is he/you? not willing to try and work things out?

 

and yea contact in enevatable now for a good few years yet then suppose!!

[Nappeal]

It really does play a mind game when you look @ your ex's name! Not only that, but my ex has a pretty common first name, and even a very common last name...I HATE hearing his damn name lol! He broke things off...things hadn't been working for a few months, so it wasn't a surprise, per se. No, he's not interested in making things work, and I will not push it even slightly...my parents 'made things work' for YEARS, and all those years that they tried were some of the most screwed up, struggle filled years-there was such a huge change in family stress once they divorced; I would rather us not work as a couple as long as we worked as parents.

[106rob]

ahh fair enough!

 

yep my parents split up when i was still a baby,i never remember them being together or any of the fights they had,they are all just sotorys iv been told from other people since

 

and they actually got on better,and still do to this day than when they were together,both been married again now for over 12 years since again i was still only young

 

and i woudl rathe that be the case,than have had them together,but fighting all through my childhood! my ex ex's mum/dad were like that! they hadnt slept in the same bed for 11 years and hadnt had sex in about 8...but they are just together becase they dont know anydifrent i think,both in late 40s now and have only ever known each other since they were 16/17 and they never did/do anything together other than work (they own a shop together)

 

maybe they have finally done the right thing and split up now,the business was on its ass in the recession anyway so who knows...

 

the bottom line is i think your doing the right thing,just dont let yourself get too deep im trying to dig myself out of doing this again after doing so well for a few weeks! and this time im determind to stay out!

 

good luck with your baby etc