LostInTurn Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I'm so angry. A friend of mine has been talking about 'love'. When he talks, he sounds exactly like my ex. It's nothing that I can respond to. He wants a relationship. I don't. it would take a miracle for me to even consider being able to trust someone. Consider it, not even trust, consider. All of my friends, family and this guy see me as such a happy person. I'm not. I'm miserable. Maybe I just hide it well sometimes. Love is a commitment. At least that's what I thought. The relationship should be respected even if it doesn't work. He told me he's never felt the kind of love that makes you think about spending your life with someone. I have. I could tell him all about it. I got mad. I won't have that again. I'm sure many people would say it will be better and I'll meet someone else. I don't know. I told him I don't ever want to have my heart broken again. He said goodluck with that because its nearly impossible and gave reasons. I don't believe in love. I don't ever want to believe in love again. Love is a joke. Maybe I have a lot of hate in my heart now. I don't know. I don't know much of anything anymore. I'm so over this 'relationship' BS.
Thorgs Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I agree completely x2 Something I miss so much is just being hugged...not even any of the other stuff. Just feeling appreciated. What's lost is lost forever.
Sonolumino Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I feel you man. I wish at times that I never met her. Feeling that love WAS a good thing, but now only hate and anger remain. In the end, people who deserve that kind of "I want to spend the rest of my life with you" love will understand what it means when you give it to them. It will just be right, and both people will stand up and fight for that relationship when times get hard. Good luck, keep posting.
skydiveaddict Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 You've won me over. I agree, never again, wont be burned. It isnt worth the time or the pain. I sense a degree of sarcasm . But for me it truly isn't worth it anymore
skydiveaddict Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 x2 Something I miss so much is just being hugged...not even any of the other stuff. Just feeling appreciated. What's lost is lost forever. true words
ohno89 Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 You've won me over. I agree, never again, wont be burned. It isnt worth the time or the pain. Unfortunately, I agree too! It's sad that so many lovely people have to feel this way because of the not-so-lovely ones... The relationship should be respected even if it doesn't work. LostInTurn - completely agree with this..it makes me angry that - even when a relationship has to end - why they just can't atleast leave it be for what it was and not completely jade the whole thing so you can't even look back on it like "okay, well it was good while it lasted..", instead you just wish you never met the person, creating so much more hate and anger making the whole thing harder to get over..
TheLoneSock Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 Love is a joke. Indeed it is. But it's one that gets played on us all... and we like it. We go back for more eventually, every time.
dreamingoftigers Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I agree with not getting involved with anyone else ever again. I have been trying to work on my marriage and I have a fifteen month old daughter but I really have no interest in being intimate with anyone (including my spouse, but I also know that if we are going to stay a family that this will have to happen at some point.) I honestly suspect my marriage will end in the next year and then I will have my freedom again. It may feel like a life unfufilled but I will never risk opening myself up to all of the self-shattering pain that a relationship brings. I don't even think I could open myself up to another relationship even if I wanted to at this point.
The Collector Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 'True Love' should be a tautology, sadly it can seem like an oxymoron. Maybe someone will come along and make you want to gamble again.
YellowShark Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 Ahhhhh come on folks... you'll all "love" again! Just not right now because you are hurting as I am. But I KNOW I am capable of loving again, it's just the next time I shall be wiser from my past experiences. And I shall have certain boundaries that my future-girl MUST respect to deserve my love. There are really good people out there for you to love... it'll just take time and circumstances for them to cross paths with you.
Author LostInTurn Posted September 5, 2010 Author Posted September 5, 2010 I can honestly say, from my heart and soul, I will never love again. Love isn't feeling guilty and crying everyday. I don't have any interest in being involved ever again.
YellowShark Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 Love isn't feeling guilty and crying everyday. Absolutely. Because that isn't love. Read my sig.
Author LostInTurn Posted September 5, 2010 Author Posted September 5, 2010 I loved (past tense) him more than anything. I cry sometimes and I hate it. I keep thinking back and knowing it wasn't my fault, but blaming myself. I don't really know how to say what I mean. I feel like I'm slipping back to day one of the breakup and that's a terrible feeling. I will never give my heart and soul to someone. I will never let anyone know me. I never want to be involved. It's all a waste. There is no more love for me in this world. Love defeated me. I lost.
GooseChaser Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I loved (past tense) him more than anything. I cry sometimes and I hate it. I keep thinking back and knowing it wasn't my fault, but blaming myself. I don't really know how to say what I mean. I feel like I'm slipping back to day one of the breakup and that's a terrible feeling. I will never give my heart and soul to someone. I will never let anyone know me. I never want to be involved. It's all a waste. There is no more love for me in this world. Love defeated me. I lost. Maybe you still need more time to get over him. You can do it. There are plenty of good guys out there for you to get to know when you're up to it. It's about finding someone who makes you happy, and who you can make happy in turn. Don't give up.
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