Author 2themoon&back Posted September 23, 2010 Author Posted September 23, 2010 Hi, I am new here.....I am going through all the same emotions, and also enjoy writing about them; very cathartic. Some of my writing is angry, some desolate, but yes, like you, I wonder if he misses me. I also wonder how he can sleep at night, not only dreaming of me, but knowing that he threw me under the bus, lied to his W, and is now living his life as a hypocritical baby. I have so many ambivalent thoughts and feelings about him, but I have to ask if I want a man who lets himself live a lie, and remain the victim to an emotionally abusive W (yes, men can be abused too), and not have the ba--s to stand up for himself and walk out the door. And now we are in NC; part of me wants to vent to him, but I don't, as there would be no real purpose right now. Even with all of this, I still miss him..... I no longer believe in marriage (sorry, to those of you who do). Instead, I think that Wiccan handfasting makes more sense (although I am not Wiccan). In this ceremony, people commit for one year, and thereafter have to recommit each year. It just makes more sense, than so many people remaining married, miserable, to spouses they no longer wish to be with (and getting involved with people like us, who fall in love with them). the only thing i can say laceyl... is thought i was wrote this and forgot, everything you said sounds just like my situation and I mean everything !!! haha you and i are at the same exact place in our thoughts and i also no longer believe in marriage either...for some of the same reasons !! i hope you will keep posting and i hope to find some anger soon, I am just sad and hurt right now, and it seems to have no end in sight from where i am ! hugs and peace to you and i look forward to hearing from you again!!
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