sensitiveguy Posted February 20, 2004 Posted February 20, 2004 Me again. I wrote a little while back about trying with the ex after 5 years. We are trying it again and we have been seeing eachother/talking on the phone a couple times a week. Everything has been great. We have had some pretty serious conversations and they have made me feel better... The one thing is --- I am *really* worried about this not working out. She seems to have a lighter attitude (I wish I had that!). And I feel that this will definately NOT WORK if I continue to feel so fearful of commitment --> and possible rejection. And I am also afraid of coming on as such weak person (which I am not). My feelings are overcoming my logic and it is just so hard for me to keep my head straight - trying not to jump to conclusions - over-analyzation - etc. Wondering if anyone had the same fears and how they overcame them? please!!
gaia Posted February 22, 2004 Posted February 22, 2004 Do you mean fear of commitment? You sound very insecure. It is difficult to relax and trust when you have been hurt before and this is a really normal way to feel. Are you trying to protect yourself in case it all goes wrong again by not getting in too deep? I have been in a situation where I drove my partner away through excessive demands for reassurance that he loved me and wasn't going to leave. He just couldn't hack it. We have now been married for 8 years, so it can work out OK. I'm an obsessive, so my methods may not work for everyone!! First, I realised I had to have a "Plan B" in case it all went wrong. I worked out who I could depend upon for emotional support, where I would go, how practical things would work out (money, house etc) It's true that none of this will stop your pain if it goes wrong, but it gave me a bit of a sense of security that wasn't built around my partner. Secondly, I realised that I had to stop the obsessive questioning. This is hard. Eventually, when I felt a question coming on, I would think to myself "I know what he will say. It will only reassure me for a moment and then I'll start worrying about the questioning again". If necessary, I took myself off to the loo to think it through. The only downside is that people start thinking you are incontinent Reassure your partner that this is your insecurity and is nothing they are doing wrong. Ask for her support. Finally, I found a really good, patient friend whom I could drone on at instead of my partner!!! It takes the pressure off the relationship. You could always use this site - you have a problem many of us can relate to. Also, see the thread started by Thinkalot called "Another way of dealing with obsessive thoughts" (or something like that - sorry, too computer illiterate to do links and stuff)
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