whichwayisup Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 The message you have entered is too short. Please lengthen your message to at least 10 characters. You are funny. How are you? Guess I should PM you.
Iconoclast Posted September 5, 2010 Posted September 5, 2010 I think your best move is to just leave it alone, it looks like it's blowing in your direction anyway. Think long term, take the advice of experience.
Author TRaczaj Posted September 5, 2010 Author Posted September 5, 2010 OK, stop making this girl a big concern of yours. She isn't your responsibility. GO stay somewhere else for a few days. She's a grown woman and can take of herself! If she gets lonely, she can CALL a friend (female) to come stay with her. You're worrying about her way too much. Chill, man. Chill. Keep thinking along the lines of " this guy is like my brother." He is FAMILY so don't go making moves, or opening up and telling her how you feel. Even more so, NOW is NOT the time to that! Her mind with her boyfriend, worrying about him.. Don't put that on her, or on yourself while your friend is in the hospital. Don't go drinking..You'll end up doing or saying something stupid. Have a shower, watch some TV, or go to sleep. Don't drink. I did end up drinking last night... a lot. But nothing happened. I guess she had the same idea as I did. One of her friends called her last night asking if she wanted to go out and she did. We got home at around the same time... both drunk, and in the house all alone. Sounds like a disaster waiting to happen... but it wasn't. We sat in the living room BSing and watching Cartoon network for a while. Then we both went to bed. I did hug her before going to sleep, but I've done that before. Nothing unusual... It's not that I don't think she can take care of herself. I know she can. It's her depression that would make me worry if she was here all by herself. I know she's had suicidal thoughts in the passed... And I just keep thinking, what if she is really upset, and I'm not here to stop her from doing something stupid. I would never forgive myself. If I go and stay at my sister's for a few days how do you suggest I explain that? I mean, if I tell her I'm going to stay at my sister's house I probably should also tell her why. Since it's not like me to just pack up and go stay with my sister, she's going to wonder if something is up.
Author TRaczaj Posted September 10, 2010 Author Posted September 10, 2010 No new developments in this... Last night I did have this really intense sex dream about her. But in the waking world I've behaved myself. So has she.
finding_serenity Posted September 10, 2010 Posted September 10, 2010 dude ur focusing way too much over her. Straighten ur head.do what you want to do.its either go for it or give it up.really, be a man.decide.
Author TRaczaj Posted September 10, 2010 Author Posted September 10, 2010 dude ur focusing way too much over her. Straighten ur head.do what you want to do.its either go for it or give it up.really, be a man.decide. I don't think it's quite as black and white as that. I know I don't want to "go for it." Well, I want to, but I won't. And it's not that easy to just "give up." I'm trying to get over her. Writing about it on this forum is one way of coping for me.
Author TRaczaj Posted September 17, 2010 Author Posted September 17, 2010 I feel like a moron posting this on a forum in the middle of the night... but I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack... I've never felt anything like this... It sucks. I felt like saying it might somehow make it go away... i dunno.
witabix Posted September 17, 2010 Posted September 17, 2010 I feel like a moron posting this on a forum in the middle of the night... but I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack... I've never felt anything like this... It sucks. I felt like saying it might somehow make it go away... i dunno. Did it? Sometimes it does.
Author TRaczaj Posted September 18, 2010 Author Posted September 18, 2010 Actually, yes it did. I went back to sleep after that.
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