abouttoloseit Posted August 31, 2010 Posted August 31, 2010 played to her when we were burying a time capsule together! **** dude, thats deep. (Literally). Well done. Ahwell, her loss man. That's a great idea man!
iLovedHer Posted September 1, 2010 Posted September 1, 2010 Ey Leftfield. You left me a reply and tried to help me , and so will I do. You may call me retarded for even sounding like supporting your gf in this, but I'll tell you something I know a bit about, and seen happen .. even to myself. So .. MAN, how it hurts when you see someone you loved become an icon of what you despise. At least their personality. You wish , and you would give anything for them just to turn the way they were before.. caring , non-selfish , nice. I have myself experienced this ... You have nice and evil feelings inside of you. Everything that's nice, everything you reach out with to your beloved one, every single heartbeat lived for her is fragile .. as much as fragile that just few wrong words/thoughts can turn it into dust. And that crushes ... Pain. Coping. Silence. Loneliness.. too much to bear without expressing emotions. If your nice emotions are gone .. All that remains is a side of you that you didn't want to show, sometimes even didn't know it existed. For it is released now.. anger. If it is really serious, like you've lost your beloved forever , this can be really bad. You turn into something you didn't want to , something you are not. The only thing that will tame the beast of darkness is love, fun, and adrenaline. They seek it. They are THE person. They never let anyone see their pride crushed, their dignity drowned. They will do anything to remain, or at least appear strong in front of others, as an avatar of strong will and idontgivea****-iamchucknorris. They focus so much on it , that they even forget everything.. Their mind is obsessed with this goal, like they never needed anyone in they life nor ever will. It is a shield of deceitfulness and inner sorrow which will be broken one day after another, and once again, the bearer will find out actually what happened, and what kind of F*CKED up nightmare they just woke up. Now , it's all about the seriousness of situation, and the deepness of emotions, but your gf may of entered this wierd state.. the stuff with another guy, the cold talk, trying to make you "jealous" even if you're not in relationship, but it just hurts you even more. The person may not be aware of the pain she's causing, nor action it's taking. The most important thing is to tame or kill the beast , instead of feeding it. Put it back into the dark mind prison and repair the shattered pieces of fine emotions left behind. Ofcourse, it will take some [even much] time. But if you're willing to give in for it, I mean if you really have any of that will to get together back with her [the one she used to be before], I am sure you will find an efficient way and tell us about how you've done it. I don't believe that this story is going to end yet, but for sure it is great and I'd like you to keep writing what happens next. I suppose everyone's girlfriend is different, I managed to leave such impression sometimes, that I admire myself, on the other side , I'm such a jerk. To my girlfriend, who loves me , only the good side of me is memorable in the times she's fighting the ice barrier wrapped around my heart that sometimes, I don't know why, just appears to be there. This was a hell long description of a thing we all know and are aware of, but if we still have enough will, we can always defeat the unwanted demeanor of anyone we love. I really hope you, and anyone fighting it, will suceed. For less depression and more hapiness. Cheers. ^^ [in other words , if you don't really bother reading, or think its just too late for that kind of salvation , just gtfo her , forget it , and move on with life, she doesn't deserve it. Falling down, she will realize what she's lost.]
Author leftfield Posted September 1, 2010 Author Posted September 1, 2010 They will do anything to remain, or at least appear strong in front of others, as an avatar of strong will and idontgivea****-iamchucknorris. Interesting thought, especially the Chuck Norris bit. Although now I'm slightly scared that my ex might come back and pound my face in with a chin-fist I don't believe that this story is going to end yet, but for sure it is great and I'd like you to keep writing what happens next. It won't end for me, I'm living it! But I will indeed keep you posted of any further developments. This is the only thing keeping me relatively sane at the moment, so I'll have to. I was little bit annoyed with myself for answering the phone to her the other night, so I've made that an impossibility now by configuring my phone to send all her calls directly to voicemail. She can still leave me a message of course, but then it's still up to me whether I want to respond, which I won't. We have nothing else to talk about.
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