Girlie Posted February 18, 2004 Posted February 18, 2004 How is it that you can know that someone is bad for you and yet for the life of you, you can not let go them? I feel like I need to go through some addiction recovery. I don't know what's wrong with me. I met the most amazing man in the world, only he didn't exist in reality. It seems like they never do. But it's so awesome to hear words like fate and destiny and it makes you feel so special. And then you find out that they're screwing someone else right under your nose. And you let it happen. I mean, it's not as if anyone can force you into this situation so you don't even have the right to feel sorry for yourself. YOu feel like the little victim, but you're so not. No one else got you here. And the sad part is, even after all of this, part of me does not want to let go and I don't know why. I can't figure it out for the life of me. Am I hoping things will change? I really don't want to live like this. I think I deserve better. I want out. I want to move on. But I don't even know where to begin.
meanon Posted February 18, 2004 Posted February 18, 2004 Your head knows it's a bad idea to stay with him but you can't switch love off overnight - the heart takes a little longer to know the truth. You are right - it's no way to live. Now you know what he's like you will be a willing victim if you stay. You deserve much better. Decide to end it. Don't worry if you miss him - that's normal. Stay away from him, the addiction analogy is a good one - abstinence will help your recovery. It's the old him you were in love with anyway and he does not exist. Now he's revealed himself to be a total Bastard allow yourself to feel anger and dislike. There have been some really good threads with advice on how to cope in your situation recently. It may help you feel less alone if you check out other's stories. Take care.
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