Nappeal Posted August 25, 2010 Share Posted August 25, 2010 My hormones are swinging, and I am hurting today. I can't focus @ work and I'm trying so very hard to fight back tears. I'm reminding myself that he doesn't miss me; he isn't thinking of me; he's very happily communicating and probably messing around w other chicks...all in hopes it'll make me mad. Its not. Its making me feel worse. I have so much going thru my mind from good memories to things he's said. I can't move my thoughts, ya know? I remind myself when things are bad that they'll get better, and when they're better I remind myself they'll get bad, and that its all OK, but I can't do it today. I don't have an urge to call or email or whatever, I'm just very sad today and could use some uplifting words. I have an appointment next week and that'll be when I plan contact just to update him. I'm reminding myself of this, but good Lord, all I want is a call, a text...something from him. Boo. Its just one of those days. Link to post Share on other sites
LostInTurn Posted August 25, 2010 Share Posted August 25, 2010 How long have you been NC? Don't break NC. I want to call, text, email as well. I know how you feel. You can't though. What will that show? It will only show that you're still there. You're not gone. You should stay strong. Stay on LS! Write down, but send it to us instead. We'll read it. We'll know how you feel. We'll respond. You'll feel better. Try it. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Nappeal Posted August 25, 2010 Author Share Posted August 25, 2010 We haven't spoke/saw each other since Monday, but we're LC because of the pregnancy. Its just so unfair...I wish I could turn my back and never deal w him again. @ the same time, I'm glad to know that we are going to have to communicate. I'm stuck hurting while he's doing his own thing...he moved on mentally months ago. I'm freaking about whether or not he'll be there for the delivery, for help after the baby. I just feel so very sad and overwhelmed. Link to post Share on other sites
Gfkr2 Posted August 25, 2010 Share Posted August 25, 2010 I, too, am having a tough day today. Take heart, friend, we are miserable together. I am suffering the final approach to divorce after a longgg marriage ruined by infidelity. Tomorrow WILL be better for both of us:) Link to post Share on other sites
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