LostIsMyFav Posted August 25, 2010 Posted August 25, 2010 I've been with my boyfriend (ex now) for 4 months (officially). We broke up in July because he's going away to school 5 hours away but we still really liked each other and we didn't want it to be the end. So he said that it's possible that in the future we can get back together. Now I have anxiety issues that requires therapy so he's dealt with a lot of my baggage too but he honestly never minded, he really cared about me. But the situation of him saying we're over for now made me anxious and I really didn't want him to leave. I constantly asked him if he was really into this and he'd always say yes that he still liked me and everything. Well about a week ago I told him that I loved him, I felt like it was something I had to do. I felt like I wasn't getting enough attention from him and it made me even MORE anxious. Me and my friend played a joke on him she texted him and pretended to be some guy hitting on me (immature I know) he ended up getting upset by it and asked me if I knew who the person was I got scared and I told him I didn't. He later found out it was my friend and that I was involved. I was honest and told him why I did it and that it was my idea and he forgave me. I wrote him a letter before he left for college that I gave to him and I apologized for the joke but misworded something and I had said that my friend gave me idea. Instead of me. So he thought I was lying. And then my friend thought I was blaming her. So they were both mad at me. I explained to my friend that it was a misunderstanding. I called my ex to explain myself since I was running out of time (only 2 days) and he said that he was done and I asked if he was going to say goodbye to me and he said he would have to think about it. I tried texting him telling him that everything was twisted and he didn't listen to me! My friend even texted him and told him that it was a misunderstanding and he didn't even text her back. I had texted him today and I told him everything was twisted and I'm sorry for the way it looks and he said that he appreciates my apology. But he said that he doesn't hate me but he doesn't want to talk right now. He never said goodbye to me. he said we would talk eventually, just not now. This is so hard for me, it pains me very much to see someone I love mad at me for something so stupid that would have been so easily done and over with had he just come over to listen but he didn't. Why did he do this? Does anyone think that it's easier that we don't talk while he's away? He's not interested in finding anyone else right now he told me and he's told plenty of people that he's at school for school, hes very serious about his school work so we all believe that so i'm not worried that he's just out to find someone else. I'm just confused as to why we aren't talking at all. All I know is I want to be with him.
Author LostIsMyFav Posted August 25, 2010 Author Posted August 25, 2010 Nah I agree it wasn't smart But I almost feel like he doesn't have a right to be THAT mad. I could understand him being upset but to the point where he wants nothing to do with me? It seems a little sketchy especially since I know he's lied to be about stuff before that I never really got upset about... I really can't talk to him now though I'm afraid. He leaves tomorrow morning. And I'm lucky he even replied to my text messages today. I haven't tried to call him or anything. It's just hard because I know he still cares about me but I feel like he wanted a reason/excuse to avoid all contact with me before he goes away to make it easier on himself.
Author LostIsMyFav Posted August 25, 2010 Author Posted August 25, 2010 True. Do you think he will realize what he lost while he's away? I mean this is my first real relationship so I don't really know what happens. Is it possible if he plans on talking to me again that he'd want to give me a second chance? Does that ever happen?
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