BiAxident Posted August 24, 2010 Posted August 24, 2010 I tried to tell myself before I broke NC that I was content with my life without her in it, that I had goals and I had a plan. I told myself not to expect anything by getting a hold of her, and to not be suprised if it hurt a little bit. But none of it really worked. So now, I'm waking up at 7:30 and just lying there in bed. One hour passes, then another, then another. No more sleep comes, dont feel like eating which just makes me more fatigued. So I lay there.. and lay there. I know that eventually, time will make me numb. But then what? I grow older and become more alone as my father passes away and friends move away? Starting over is so hard. http://tinychat.com/myrelationship
HopeLove Posted August 24, 2010 Posted August 24, 2010 We all are going through a very though moment but we will move on. It's just taking longer than we wished. Once we will move on we will be ready to enjoy our lives again!
Author BiAxident Posted August 24, 2010 Author Posted August 24, 2010 I certainly hope so. I've been hung up on this woman for 10 years now. Even before I dated her the first time, I was miserable with desire for her. And just when I had her back and she was talking about marriage, she 180'd me. It is just so, so painful. Thanks for the support though! http://tinychat.com/myrelationship
bonpaw2008 Posted August 24, 2010 Posted August 24, 2010 Hey buddy, I think this is the one single reason I maintain NC....because I know even if he begs me to come back and tells me how different things are going to be, I will end up in the exact same spot I am in right now someday. He is incapable of having a healthy, normal relationship. I always hoped that I was the one to "change" him. I told him in one of our last conversations that he needed to get help to get over this commitmaphobic behavior. He won't though, because as long as he is the one doing the dumping it is fine for him. Feeling for you honey, I know that you are struggling but now you have REALLY learned your lesson, right??? xo
Author BiAxident Posted August 24, 2010 Author Posted August 24, 2010 I guess? At this point I'm too numb with pain to comprehend lessons from this adventure, other than that I cant trust what she says, and that LS and our new chatroom are both wonderful things. http://tinychat.com/myrelationship
bboy Posted August 24, 2010 Posted August 24, 2010 BX, you've made a progress and an important one. You've come to the conclusion that having no contact with your ex is probably better than worse. Things are not going to change over night, but you chose to walk the right path here. It is right, because it is about your well being. There is a start up time with this that makes it hard to believe, but eventually you'll see the beauty of it, the beauty of you making your own choices. You don't need to take lessons at this moment. There is no "bonus" added to learn everything at once. And if it comforts you, you know no one else made it in one day either. No matter if it's a simple crush or a deep relationship. Have you had crushes on someone before? Do you think about them now? Give them some thoughts and you'll notice that you know how to cope.
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