I feel damaged inside. ugh!!!

[9Lives]

I'm out here dating and meeting guys but my interest level is low and a lot of time my ex still crosses my mind. I'm not happy to hear love songs and sometimes I'm jealous of couples and sometimes I'm not. I hang out but I still feel like my mind is distant. I smoke weed in the morning just to get a little lift. I'm sexy, beautiful, and attractive but I just don't feel right inside. does this ever end!!!! I just want to be normal again.

[GrayClouds]

I'm out here dating and meeting guys but my interest level is low and a lot of time my ex still crosses my mind. I'm not happy to hear love songs and sometimes I'm jealous of couples and sometimes I'm not. I hang out but I still feel like my mind is distant. I smoke weed in the morning just to get a little lift. I'm sexy, beautiful, and attractive but I just don't feel right inside. does this ever end!!!! I just want to be normal again.

 

How long has it been, likely you are trying to force it and that simple makes you feel bad at a time when you should be doing things that makes you feel good.

 

 

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[bestrong]

10 months has gone by but I am still not interested in dating anyone! I learned to live with it. Though there are times I get cranky and emotional, but I am hanging in there. Instead of smoking weed, try to go on a jog in the morning, it was awful to kick myself out of the house at first, but I sticked to it and now I enjoy it! Love yourself.

[9Lives]

10 months has gone by but I am still not interested in dating anyone! I learned to live with it. Though there are times I get cranky and emotional, but I am hanging in there. Instead of smoking weed, try to go on a jog in the morning, it was awful to kick myself out of the house at first, but I sticked to it and now I enjoy it! Love yourself.

 

 

yeah maybe I am expecting too much out of myself. thank you for posting and letting me know its been a while for you. its makes me feel like its okay to take my time to heal.

[LostInTurn]

Hi. I read your post and it sounds like you are going through what I'm going through.

 

Sometimes when I think about it I don't understand. I'm also very attractive, fun loving, etc. But that doesn't mean we don't have true emotions.

 

I've been on two dates. The first I don't count because it was too soon and I was miserable. The second was better. However when I left, I cried.

 

You may not be ready. I don't know how long it takes to be ready. It just takes times.

 

I have good days and bad days. I wish I was better and didn't think about any of this.

 

As for the smoking. Its only hiding your feelings momentarily. You should consider stopping until you're through this.

 

Don't give up. It will get better.

[LostInTurn]

I'm out here dating and meeting guys but my interest level is low and a lot of time my ex still crosses my mind. I'm not happy to hear love songs and sometimes I'm jealous of couples and sometimes I'm not. I hang out but I still feel like my mind is distant. I smoke weed in the morning just to get a little lift. I'm sexy, beautiful, and attractive but I just don't feel right inside. does this ever end!!!! I just want to be normal again.

 

As far as the couples and love songs are concerned, I feel the same way.

 

When you said you 'just want to be normal again'. I tell my friends everyday I want my life back.

 

I understand.

[LostInTurn]

I'm out here dating and meeting guys but my interest level is low and a lot of time my ex still crosses my mind. I'm not happy to hear love songs and sometimes I'm jealous of couples and sometimes I'm not. I hang out but I still feel like my mind is distant. I smoke weed in the morning just to get a little lift. I'm sexy, beautiful, and attractive but I just don't feel right inside. does this ever end!!!! I just want to be normal again.

 

Hi,

 

I don't think my other response posted, so I'll try again.

 

I'm in your shoes. I'm beautiful, smart, attractive, nice... But I feel like my world had been taken from me. I have been on two dates. One date was obviously way too soon for me and a mistake. The other, better, laughed, had fun, but no.

 

I can't stand the sight of couples and I hate love songs. When you said you just want to be normal again. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't tell my friends 'I want my life back'

 

I'm sorry this happened. I can identify. You're better than this. I'm sure you're a wonderful person, who just through some sh*t that you probably didn't deserve. You'll be happy. The thoughts will stop. You will be normal again.

 

Maybe we just need to stop thinking about it so much.

[9Lives]

Hi,

 

I don't think my other response posted, so I'll try again.

 

I'm in your shoes. I'm beautiful, smart, attractive, nice... But I feel like my world had been taken from me. I have been on two dates. One date was obviously way too soon for me and a mistake. The other, better, laughed, had fun, but no.

 

I can't stand the sight of couples and I hate love songs. When you said you just want to be normal again. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't tell my friends 'I want my life back'

 

I'm sorry this happened. I can identify. You're better than this. I'm sure you're a wonderful person, who just through some sh*t that you probably didn't deserve. You'll be happy. The thoughts will stop. You will be normal again.

 

Maybe we just need to stop thinking about it so much.

 

I think the key to this stage of healing is for us not to relax and don't try to push ourselves to do too much..but something. we are not going to be at top self but we can do a little and a little more to get back to ourselves. I brought new pots and that motivated me to cook. its not a big thing but its me.

 

baby steps..baby steps. the next thing you know, we will be on the other side

[BiAxident]

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