redmelon Posted August 22, 2010 Posted August 22, 2010 went to an all day music festival today. my ex-fiance was one of the photogs. he decided to come over to me and sit down and catch up for a bit early in the day. said there was no reason to not be cordial. then my friend later told him to come back and see me when she ran into him. when he came back I said that I still love him and want him in my life. he seemed shocked and said he thinks about me every day. then he said he needed to think and would come back later to talk more. it got dark and I left before seeing him again. not sure what to make of any of it.
User1029 Posted August 22, 2010 Posted August 22, 2010 Don't over think the situation or let this go to your head. You are already strong without him, and if something sparked and rekindled the flame it is just an added benefit . Let it play out, don't rush into any assumptions and over analyze anything. Worse case scenario is you are back to what you have been doing for sometime now without him, best case scenario he realizes he lost someone so important and you can go from there . Do what you have been doing, but love works in funny ways and you never know....this could have been the seed that will bloom in his head.
Iselia Posted August 22, 2010 Posted August 22, 2010 He said he'd think about it and get back to you. Just leave him alone; continue with life. Eventually, he'll contact you (with good or bad news) or he won't (and you know what that means). You've come too far along to let it all go out the window.
Author redmelon Posted August 22, 2010 Author Posted August 22, 2010 I can't help but think I made a huge mistake in being so open and truthful about my continued feelings for him, especially after all this time has passed.
User1029 Posted August 22, 2010 Posted August 22, 2010 Don't worry about it. You did what you felt you had to do. Whether it was spontaneous or not, it was a bottled emotion that was eventually going to be released. You can't mess anything up, the WORST thing that could happen is you continue your life as you HAVE been. Don't dwell on this, you've been strong for so long! Just go on with your life the way you have been, and you never know what windows will be opened for you.
Author redmelon Posted August 22, 2010 Author Posted August 22, 2010 this morning I am replaying it all, and I don't know what I think. I can't undo what happened or what I said. He asked me lots of questions, and told me lots of things he felt I should know about his life over the past year and a half of being broken up. Namely, that he sought out and met his birth mother. That was something I never thought he'd have the guts to do. I felt so drawn to him, but I felt like screaming and punching him in the face at the same time. He said he was surprised I was putting myself on the line by saying what I did. I shrugged. I guess it was what I had to do, as much as it sucks. I have no idea what I wanted to come of it, it was mostly diarrhea of the mouth. I feel scared of what may happen next, not sure if I can handle it, even if it's nothing at all.
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