Nappeal Posted August 21, 2010 Posted August 21, 2010 I've had a journal for 2 1/2 years that I spordically write in. Today, I decided to write a little in it. After flipping back thru some old entries, I realized that as far back as MARCH I was noticing a change in him and I wasn't sure where the relationship was going or quite how happy either one of us were. I've been reminded of the few times that we've actually broken up but then got back together...niether of us quite wanted to let go. This was it tho. A friend suggested listening to Lyfe Jennings 'Goodbye'...IDK who on here is into that kind of music, but it really helped to hear - that's how its been for us. I'm angry he broke up w me and how he did it, but you know what? This was a long time coming. Just, niether one of us had the balls to do it and stick w it. I could call him a coward for how he went about dumping me, but in the end, he actually HAD the balls to do something that niether one of us wanted to do. I assume cuz things didn't end bad between us that I've crossed his mind, but obviously not enough to contact me. It sucks, but he's let it go, and now I have to continue doing the same. That's my 'ah ha' moment of the day.
edgeofdarkness Posted August 21, 2010 Posted August 21, 2010 AHAH moments suck becos while they teach us something brilliant they also show what an idiot weve been for not getting it before, but its cool, hope it helps u move on, aha moments also add strength to our spine.
StussyMagnet Posted August 21, 2010 Posted August 21, 2010 I'm coming to the same realisation myself. We both knew it was never gonna work. Onandoffandonandoffandon.. it went. Finally she had the bottle to finish it completely. Finished badly but finish it did. And it needed to! I only like fun rollercoasters :-)
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