LostInTurn Posted August 18, 2010 Posted August 18, 2010 The past two days, I thought I was much better than I had been. I was starting to be more 'me'. I thought was on the road to recovery. Well, last night when I was watching t.v. getting ready for bed, it was like a flood of thoughts. No matter what I did, I could not stop them. My friends keep telling me to remember the bad, goodness I cannot! He is blocked from every communication method possible. However, as I sat there, I text him twice. Knowing he cannot text me back, but I still text him. This is terrible!!!
Sambo Posted August 18, 2010 Posted August 18, 2010 The past two days, I thought I was much better than I had been. I was starting to be more 'me'. I thought was on the road to recovery. Well, last night when I was watching t.v. getting ready for bed, it was like a flood of thoughts. No matter what I did, I could not stop them. My friends keep telling me to remember the bad, goodness I cannot! He is blocked from every communication method possible. However, as I sat there, I text him twice. Knowing he cannot text me back, but I still text him. This is terrible!!! The reason you feel so bad is the Loss not the Man. Do you know the difference ? Your missing the feelings you had with him not him. Do you see the difference ? We all want what we can not have and being rejected is probably one of the worst things to ever happen to a human being but you do not need him to have those feelings again. Do you understand ?
Author LostInTurn Posted August 18, 2010 Author Posted August 18, 2010 I do understand it's the feelings and not the person, yes. At times, I do lose sight of that, but yes I know this. I am missing the feelings I had with him. I know it's not him. Again, something I lose sight of and have to remind myself of. I know... I was not happy. And since the break, all I can focus on how I was happy, when I don't remember if I was or not. I called and left him a voice mail before I read your response. I was weak. I feel like an idiot. I'm such a good person. I can't believe this is happening.
Sambo Posted August 18, 2010 Posted August 18, 2010 I do understand it's the feelings and not the person, yes. At times, I do lose sight of that, but yes I know this. I am missing the feelings I had with him. I know it's not him. Again, something I lose sight of and have to remind myself of. I know... I was not happy. And since the break, all I can focus on how I was happy, when I don't remember if I was or not. I called and left him a voice mail before I read your response. I was weak. I feel like an idiot. I'm such a good person. I can't believe this is happening. Sweety, All this proves is you are human and you know how to love someone. You should be happy because it means your alive and one day a man that deserves your kind of love will come along and everything will be amazing. This was just not the man for you at this time. He WILL come because you have a good heart but remember YOU DESERVE to be LOVED as much as you LOVE someone else. Real Love is based off mutual RESPECT and ADMIRATION. If it's not mutual, it's not real love. Do you understand that? Try and breathe and relax as best you can and keep telling yourself that a wonderful fantastic man is right around the corner and remind yourself always that you deserve respect and you deserve to be loved 110% and nothing less will do. Repeat it over and over all day long.
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