DreamerGirl27 Posted August 16, 2010 Posted August 16, 2010 so anyway...have this friend that's a guy that is going nowhere due to him not being attracted to me romantically or sexually. I, on the other hand, am EXTREMELY attracted to him and he knows this. He's given me reasons why I should not like him and I have rejected every reason and tried telling him that I don't care about that stuff. It didn't work. Anyway, I have not seen him all summer, just texted and talked on facebook, not even on the phone. He asked me to hang out twice during the school year last semester, but summer came and he basically went on a hiatus as far as hanging out in person is concerned. I feel like I have pushed him away a little with being so forward about my feelings for him and I'm trying to not bring it up anymore at all...I'm not going to tell him how I feel anymore. He didn't tell me he was signed up for the same class as me (again) this semester. I had to ask him what he's taking this semester to find out. That's when I found out. I don't know if he was signed up with it at the time I told him I was taking it, or if he signed up with it after the fact, or if he needs the class and was planning on taking it anyway, regardless of whether I was in it or not. I am guessing this (the last part). I think he needs the class, regardless. Usually I am really happy/excited to see him and I sort of am now 'cause I'm trying to do this "friendship" thing and just view him as a friend and shove my feelings aside and it's very SLOWLY starting to work. I think. Anyway, I am sort of feeling embarrassed after everything I've told him and him basically throwing back in my face that he is not interested. I am very gutsy online and don't hold back anything when I talk to people online. It's in person that I get really quiet/shy sometimes. I am just really starting to get nervous about this semester. I will be seeing him 3 days a week, quite possibly 5. I'll probably run into him the other 2 days cause we have the same major and are in the same building at the same time. I don't know what to do to put myself more at ease, because he makes my heart do jumping jacks and I hate that I don't do the same for him. This isn't even a real friendship...this is a "you change your mind about me yet?" hopeful, wishful thinking friendship on my part. I also feel awkward that I'm the female in this situation, because I have heard/read that it is usually the guy wanting more out of a "friendship" with a girl. Anyway...I just don't know what's going to happen this semester. If it's going to be awkward or not.
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