just want to rant, rave, vent whatever you call it!

[SoConfusledandHurt]

I dont think I could leave my baby for the night with someone who drinks a twelve pack and can be abusive and has some anger issues!

[finding_serenity]

I was hesitant but I know he won't physically abuse our baby,i want to show him that taking care of a baby especially at night is not easy.

[Minnie09]

Phew...Don't do that again! I understand your desire to teach him a lesson, but you never know what might cross his mind when he has a buzz, especially when he's mad at you. Plus, he might use that against you if he decides to fight for custody.

[SoConfusledandHurt]

HE could totally use that against you in a custody fight...also...I fear even more than physical abuse...is neglect. If he gets too drunk...he wont even hear a baby in the middle of the night.

[finding_serenity]

our baby is fine when he came to pick me up from work yesterday.today is his birthday and i might get him some gift or anything.our marriage isnt working well but he's still my husband.its his birthday so i wanna do something.i know how it feels when your spouse dont care its our birthday.i dont want to do it to him.its not me to be mean and insensitive even though i am hurting now.

[finding_serenity]

 

..fell too fast and i feel too much..

[finding_serenity]

this is one of the moments i let my emotions flow out and just cry it all out til all the tears wash away the pain..

[finding_serenity]

yesterday I enrolled for my cna classes and afterwards I walked all the way to giant store.i bought a bday cake and card for my H. When we got home,i greeted him happi bday cooked and we celebrate with our neighbor.i didn't get any thanks or kiss.he still sleeps on the couch but I guess I'm numb that I didn't feel that or because I didn't expect anything in return.i did that cause I love him cause he's my husband.stupid?

[wishing4thefuture]

okey, I can't rant and rave on my fb or to my friends cause my hubs says I'm putting him down and treating him like crap, bur I am the one treated like crap.he buys 12 cans of beer evryday and smoke two packs of cigarette! We are so broke that I'm glad there's wic or my baby won't have formula. I hate his sister who treats me like crap too, calls my hubs ex her sister-in-law, so what am I?i think I'm the one married now to his azzhole bro. I just need my drivers license but he's not teaching me to drive, afraid I will run away with our baby when I get behind the wheels or just plain lazy. Now says we don't have money to send me to school but got money to spend on beers and cig.

 

Well, I think there's a couple approaches you could take to this situation. I don't think you'll be able to get the others in the situation to change, so it'll have to come from you.

 

You could, pretend you were in a dream and all you had to do was wake up. Or, you could write the story of your day, and then before you went to sleep, write the ending for tomorrow before it happens. Anything, just anything to get out of the cycle your in.

 

You could also just throw a temper tantrum or something. Call the cops, break something. If life is so bad that you want to run away, than really anything can change so long as you don't hurt anybody, especially the baby.

[finding_serenity]

I'm feeling better,gaining confidence as I gain control of my life again...slowly my self esteem is returning and yes,now I see my husband in different light,someone whos so insecure

[finding_serenity]

he's tryng to control my life and putting weights on my shoulder but I won't nudge,my career is a priority for me right now.and I won't work overtime to pay the rent and bills, he can start cutting back on cig and stick if he wants the bills paid.

[finding_serenity]

today s the first day of school for me.H still sore bout it and giving me hard time on books I need to buy.i told him to chill.looks like this marriage will be a living arrangement now. His bestfriend texted me yesterday and was happy to know I'm already enrolled.

[finding_serenity]

I enjoyed my first day of school and I posted that on my fb... What's funny? My H sister, yeah my sister-in-law who doesn't recognize me at all posted comments like she's interested to know what's going on with my life... Funny huh? I just replied in nice way but do I care? Heck no, I badly want to get out of this life and all the drama in my H life.nope,i won't let my son grow up in this situation.