AlwaysConflicted Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 Broken up 3 months...NC for 2 months. So yesterday I tried to gather her stuff so I could box it up and mail it to her home. As soon as I was holding her personal belongings in my hands I got swept away by an avalanche of emotion. I didn't expect all that emotion. Anyways, needless to say I put it all back down where it was originally. I couldn't go through with it. I guess this is me holding on to the past.
Thierro Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 At the moment of writing this I have a big box next to me filled with memories and stuff of the years together. I had to fight the tears that were coming but I let them go. Don't wait. The time will never be just right. Cry if you need to, but you need to do it now. Go through the pain and be victorious.
bonpaw2008 Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 It is supposed to bring emotion, with emotion brings healing....feel it, cry it out, but gather that stuff up. It has been sitting around way too long, and you have been using it as a crutch, as a last stand so you know you will have contact with her again. She hasn't had this stuff for three months, does she really need it? I wish I had a ton of stuff of my ex's so I could start a friggin bon-fire with it! Good luck honey, you got this, cut those ties yourself....
smk Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 AC - as thierro says there will never be a right time or wrong time... As hard as it maybe sometimes we just have to get rid of those things because they hold us back from reaching our true potential... I know the only thing I have left now are memories of her, I crossed my last bride yesterday and when I got to the other side I burnt it so I couldn't get back anymore and now the only options left are swim through a piranha, shark & anaconda infested river to go back or continue forward on my journey that is life... Maybe getting rid of those reminders of her may help you, and as much as it brings back so many memories and emotions right now sooner or later you will have to get rid of the stuff, I say better now and get the emotions out of the way rather than farther down the line when she is a distant memory...
Author AlwaysConflicted Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 (edited) Yeah. I don't feel the need to cry just yet, but it's definitely sad. It feels like a pressure in my chest. I thought I was ready to handle it, but I guess not. If I mail her the belongings, I'm breaking contact. And that somehow feels wrong too. No option feels right. Edited August 14, 2010 by AlwaysConflicted
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