xx.Kael.xx Posted August 3, 2010 Posted August 3, 2010 So, I think I've forcefully convinced myself I won't love again. Except family - but excluding relationship wise. Everyday still feels like hell. My friends are tired of hearing about my loss - her.I'm in a dead end job, and come home only to be in the dark. Thank God for grandma being here. Anyway , I'm falling back onto doing xtc. The way I see it, if I can't be happy alone ...then its something I consider doing. I'm too hurt & angry to care. My friends don't listen when I'm having suicidal moments. And those are real. I just can't help but stop myself at the thought of my family, but the temptation is still there. I'm in a void, ****. Shes still on my mind...I can't fight this. I'm recovering yeah...but idk. **** this.
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