Author HopeLove Posted August 7, 2010 Author Posted August 7, 2010 I'm back home now. I'm so tempeted to text him. I miss him so much...
smk Posted August 7, 2010 Posted August 7, 2010 I'm back home now. I'm so tempeted to text him. I miss him so much... I won't say do it or don't do it, but remember what that text could not lead to... You are strong hope you can get through it... Instead focus on that holiday - post here, watch a movie, read a book... The possibilities are endless
Author HopeLove Posted August 7, 2010 Author Posted August 7, 2010 I'm trying not to do it, I'm trying to be strong, but there's something in my that wants so badly to contact him... Tomorrow I'll post here and let you know what happend.
smk Posted August 7, 2010 Posted August 7, 2010 I'm trying not to do it, I'm trying to be strong, but there's something in my that wants so badly to contact him... Tomorrow I'll post here and let you know what happend. You do what you feel is going to help you move forward and remember we are all here for you...
spriggig Posted August 7, 2010 Posted August 7, 2010 I'm trying not to do it, I'm trying to be strong, but there's something in my that wants so badly to contact him... Tomorrow I'll post here and let you know what happend. If you contact him, he will reject you. Do it and you'll drive him further away. Do it and your heart will know the pain it needs to move on. Do it and you'll regret the pain, but you may grow from it too. There is no easy path here, but going straight through (contacting him) might be shorter than trying to go around.
Author HopeLove Posted August 8, 2010 Author Posted August 8, 2010 I didn't contact him after all. But guys I tell you, it was really hard. I don't know for how long I can go on with this NC. I keep with NC for two reasons: 1) I hope that with time I'll get used to it and eventually he won't be part of my life anymore. 2) He already reject me and I don't think I need him to reject me again.
skydiveaddict Posted August 8, 2010 Posted August 8, 2010 Who knows the reason? It will just make it worse if you find out. Plus you probably wont get the truth
Author HopeLove Posted August 8, 2010 Author Posted August 8, 2010 Today I couldn't help myself and send him a text. Quote: "I would like to know what you feel for me because I still love you". You know what? Although I broke my NC of nearly 1 1/2 months I felt so good I've done it. It was kind of a relief. I sent it nearly 8 hours ago and didn't get any reply but it doesn't matter. The only reply I want to hear is that he loves me too. I don't want any other replies so it's ok like that. What it counts for me is that I feel better and now I have to start again with NC
smk Posted August 8, 2010 Posted August 8, 2010 Hope - so long as it makes you feel better that's all that matters... I am sure at some point we all break NC hey look at me she asked me for coffee and I went and of made me realise how much of a different person she is... So long as you are happy that's what matters...
bonpaw2008 Posted August 9, 2010 Posted August 9, 2010 Today I couldn't help myself and send him a text. Quote: "I would like to know what you feel for me because I still love you". You know what? Although I broke my NC of nearly 1 1/2 months I felt so good I've done it. It was kind of a relief. I sent it nearly 8 hours ago and didn't get any reply but it doesn't matter. The only reply I want to hear is that he loves me too. I don't want any other replies so it's ok like that. What it counts for me is that I feel better and now I have to start again with NC Stay strong girly, you know that NC is for you. He doesn't deserve to know that you are still thinking about him. I am glad it made you feel better, I hope it doesn't make you feel worse tomorrow or in a week when he doesn't respond. Every time I get a text from him I fight the urge to say "I love you and I am waiting for you". I want him to know but he already knows, and if he wants me back he has to make the contact and ask. Also, I am starting to believe that this relationship is not meant to be, and it would take a hell of a lot on his end to get me back after all that has happened. Focus on the future honey, he is your past, he has nothing to do with today, and he will not be there tomorrow.
HighPlainsDrifter Posted August 9, 2010 Posted August 9, 2010 Today I couldn't help myself and send him a text. Quote: "I would like to know what you feel for me because I still love you". You know what? Although I broke my NC of nearly 1 1/2 months I felt so good I've done it. It was kind of a relief. I sent it nearly 8 hours ago and didn't get any reply but it doesn't matter. The only reply I want to hear is that he loves me too. I don't want any other replies so it's ok like that. What it counts for me is that I feel better and now I have to start again with NC Yeah hopelove... You can read about my complete breakdown of NC in my thread. Totally blew up in my face, but I guess it kind of had to be done. Don't feel bad about breaking NC. You aren't the first, you won't be the last. You know, it felt so good when I met her face to face, but then the rejection the next day kind of made me realize that it was to no avail. Well, maybe I can't exactly say that, because it had to stir SOMEthing in her.... Whether it be stress, having to somewhat deal with being a complete $hit to someone who treated her so well, or having someone actually ask her the tough questions. I don't know. You'll likely get the NC hangover though as well. I've got it. It's day 2 now again. This time, there's nothing left for me to do...
Author HopeLove Posted August 9, 2010 Author Posted August 9, 2010 Well he reply my text with a long email. I started a new thread under "2nd chances" with the name "what do you think?" (wanted a better subject but every time was rejected) if you are interested in reading it.
Author HopeLove Posted August 10, 2010 Author Posted August 10, 2010 I don't regret having breaking NC because I couldn't do it any longer but here I find myself over thinking and struggling between trying to moving on and at the same time not wanting to let it go and nurishing some hope... I still love him so much and miss him all the time. I would appreciate if you would like to comment my new threat in "2nd chances", "What do you think".
Author HopeLove Posted August 10, 2010 Author Posted August 10, 2010 Today I will reply to his email. Let's see what will happen. I'll keep you informed . I'm feeling much better, if think I start being tired of this whole situation that takes so much of my energy.
smk Posted August 10, 2010 Posted August 10, 2010 Today I will reply to his email. Let's see what will happen. I'll keep you informed . I'm feeling much better, if think I start being tired of this whole situation that takes so much of my energy. Hey hope, hope you're well... I know that feeling went through it yesterday and a little today... I broke NC on Thursday last week and then again yesterday and we texted most of the morning and even spoke on the phone. And just like you I feel too physically tired of having to deal with this everyday, it's almost as if my body is going against my heart and refusing to let me feel like crap, its just weird , but I guess it can only mean that we are maybe going through the star of acceptance, and as scary as I seem to find it, I am just going with it... I had a few down moments today but not tempted to call her or anything - I just wanted it to end so I can continue living my life the way I want to live it...
Author HopeLove Posted August 10, 2010 Author Posted August 10, 2010 Hi smk, yes I think you are really starting to move, well I hope so! I think is great you are organizing this picnic in Ldn. That shows your are moving on. Well done! I would love to have your comment on the thread I posted in "2nd chances".
smk Posted August 10, 2010 Posted August 10, 2010 Thy hope I am too tired of feeling like this and I figured I am the only person who can do something about it... The picnic should be fun hopefully we can get a few more ppl to come for it too... Will go check out the other thread later tonight just on my way out to run...
howlong Posted August 10, 2010 Posted August 10, 2010 With some little differences we are all going through the same and wished we could be with the one we love instead of writing and reading here. It's hard to cope with rejection specially when you really loved someone and though he / she loved you too. I though my ex was "the one". He's obviously not since "the one" wouldn't break up with me. The silly thing is that despite we have been rejected most of us want to get back with their ex. They are the reason why we feel so miserable and yet we think they are the only ones that would stop us feeling miserable and I'm no exeption. Well put and so true. I'm in the same sort of situation, he broke up with me, said he still loved me, but it wouldn't work in the future...regardless of whether it's for the best down the road..right now it just hurts. Much luck to you in the future!
Author HopeLove Posted August 13, 2010 Author Posted August 13, 2010 For a couple of days I was feeling much better. Yesterday I was thinking I was really moving on but tonight I'm feeling like some months ago. I'm feeling again this anxiety. I reply to his email but he hasen't sent a reply yet. They say no reply is also an answer... I can't believe the power he still has over me. I guess it's the power I'm giving him but I can't see how I can't stop this. I feel like I will be stuck in my life loving someone that is not loving me back. I still feel so much pain. I need to change this but I don't know how. I don't know how to stop thinking of him. I have moments in which I'm not thinking of him but there's no single day in wich in don't think of him.
Author HopeLove Posted August 15, 2010 Author Posted August 15, 2010 I've seen him yesterday together with some friends in common. Well today I'm feeling so down. I still not able to let him go...
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