mr heartbroken Posted August 1, 2010 Posted August 1, 2010 I broke my thumb on wednesay and found myself in A&E alone. It was then I really started thinking about stuff. I felt I was alone, even though I could have picked the phone up and had someone there with me if I had wanted too. Thing is after a year and a half I only wanted the pne person that I couldn't have. That got to me. I hate the fact that she has moved on! I hate the fact that she said that we would be forever! I hate the fact that is still miss her! I have been felling kinda down since then and it's now saturday night and all i'm thinking about is her. I am crying out for a relashionship but not witht anyone else. I have slept with x amount of females and felt nothing! I have went out on dates and felt nothing! I have had amazing nights out and come home and felt nothing! I know we wount get back together but someone in my stomach is saying that we will! If i was to ever see her what I would want to say ...... Since the day I seen you just under seven years ago at your aunts I thought I fancy you, I didn't often tell you that i did. After three months I split up with you because i thought I wanted to try new things and wanted to see what was out there. This only made me realise how much I love you. We got back together and i was over the moon. I love the fact that we spent nearly five and a half years together but it's not enough! I have since we split up been on dates, kissed, coudled and slept with people to try and forget about you! It hasn't worked! I miss you more today than ever and wish that you could see this. What I would probably say, hey how are you..... It was good seein you... Take care and contunie to be a stranger to me! As daft as this sounds If I knew that it would hurt this much after we split up I would never have started it! Thanks for reading this.
This Hurts Posted August 1, 2010 Posted August 1, 2010 If I knew that it would hurt this much after we split up I would never have started it! You read my mind!
bonpaw2008 Posted August 1, 2010 Posted August 1, 2010 So sorry Heartbroken. Sucks that you are still struggling so much after all this time. Have you worked on yourself? Do you feel like you are a better person after her? That is where you need to get to. Missing her and pining for her all this time is not good for you. She quit you, she doesn't want to be with you. Cold hard facts. What was so great about her? You haven't felt anything for anyone else because you aren't letting yourself. You are better than this. You can do this. You need to be happy with yourself, the things in your life that you treasure. Get yourself back, and then you can find something even better with someone else. Good luck, keep posting, we are here for you,
smk Posted August 1, 2010 Posted August 1, 2010 Hey buddy, we have all been to that place and we all have those moments where we want to say things to try and either get them back or get closure, but in the end the only thing it will do is cause you more heartache... I agree with paw - you need to just let go... Its not an easy journey, but it needs to be done... I am still having difficulty letting go but with each day that passes I feel a little bit better... Yes I do still have my downer days and my downer moments but I focus my mind and try and not let them consume me... Stick to NC - it works... And if it helps keep posting here, it made a huge diff for me. Me and paw seem to be the prolific threadjackers ATM... And most importantly you need to embrace the chubby ninja within you and let him shower you with ice cream and jelly and chocolate sprinkles... That always gets a laugh out of me... Go out for a walk, to a gallery, whatever our mind feels like doing and eventually you will get there...
lullaby Posted August 1, 2010 Posted August 1, 2010 I'm sorry you're still hurting, but it's true what they said. You need to let it go. I know it's painful and it's a process that takes time, but you need to re-focus your objective and goal=moving on and working on you. Go out, have fun, clean, paint, I don't know... whatever you feel like doing, DO IT! you'll feel so much better. Sometimes things happen for a reason, try to look on the bright side of this. I read somewhere around LS that a break-up can sometimes be one of the greatest gifts because it removes that person from your life, someone who doesn't care and opens paths for someone greater. NC is hard, but it does get better. Who knows what can happen in the future? You won't find out if you get stuck doing nothing
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