smk Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Ok people - I need someone to drive over and punch me in the face, and give me a good kicking.... Why you ask??? so that the physical pain can distract me from the thoughts of her that refused to get out of my head... For a fleeting moment I did have a passing thought of breaking NC before I banished it a second later, I did think of showing up at her doorstep and proffesing my undying love for her - then I remembered that I had a pair between my legs, I did think of posting the 8 page letter I have written - I punched the wall and then it dawned on me - physical pain takes away the memory for a while. oh and I would really like her to stop invading my dreams - yeah I miss her, yeah I wish I could be back with her, I miss the companionship, I miss the way she used to look at me, I miss spending a lazy saturday afternoon in the park with her, i miss laying next to her in bed stroking her beautiful hair, but its not there anymore and my GD dreams keeping on torturing me by reminding me of those.... "]f?*@a>::{}{{:][][;'l..'l'kjfhdhrudhgf (those are my explitives)....
cookie2 Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Sure, whats your postcode? Oh wait ex has my friggin satnav, and I ain't breaking NC to ask for that back!! I am lucky that I never remember my dreams. I do have all those thoughts and miss all those things in my waking hours though. I am distracting myself today by watching the remake of Day Of The Triffids... its quite funny! TriffOil!
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 Sure, whats your postcode? Oh wait ex has my friggin satnav, and I ain't breaking NC to ask for that back!! I am lucky that I never remember my dreams. I do have all those thoughts and miss all those things in my waking hours though. I am distracting myself today by watching the remake of Day Of The Triffids... its quite funny! TriffOil! Yeah I remember my dreams which can be both good and bad.... I am gonna go for a run hopefully that should distract me for a while... I was going to go to a brazillian festival at the southbank tomorrow but found out the ex might be going so need to replan my weekend... What channel is the remake coming on?
bonpaw2008 Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Terrible night for me as well. My mom told me I needed to get away so I packed up the kids and took them up north to her cottage in upper MI. Problem is, the last time I was up here was with him. We didn't have kids over 4th of July so we split our time between sets of parents and had an absolutely perfect time. At my mom's we walked the beach, sat on the porch for hours and talked. He kept saying how absolutely perfect it was. That was a month ago. How do things turn so fast? How can he just give all of that up?? Does he really think he is going to find anything like what we had?? Also, the damn Tigers almost blew a huge lead in the bottom of the ninth (sorry my English friends, baseball rules!) and we would have been texting back and forth like mad about it, but I couldn't Why did he have to get in every nook and cranny of my life so I can't even watch TV without losing it??
cookie2 Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 What channel is the remake coming on? It's a BBC thing, it was on last week. It'll probably be repeated, or it might be on iPlayer or Catch-up TV. I had it V+'d. He kept saying how absolutely perfect it was. That was a month ago. How do things turn so fast? I don't know Just a month ago we were talking about having kids... thank God that never happened. Even in the evening of D-day she was talking about having kids in a year's time... my first thought was "who's the father?"...
xpaperxcutx Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 You're right you have a pair between your legs, and if you know what's good for you, you stay away from the ex. In fact, I don't think a punch is enough, how about a good ol' castration? Seriously, ether you have pride or you don't. And I would burn those letters just so she wouldn't have the satisfaction of reading them.
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 Bon - I know what you mean we were talking engagement this year, wedding in 2012. The day before d-day we were talking about schools for the kids, and names for them.... Where things turned who knows.... The worst part is I can actually recall pretty much each memory of us together so vividly it's as of it happened yesterday... Cookie - hmmm I am gonna go to Hyde park with a good book and just be on my own for a bit... Who knows what may happen...
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 You're right you have a pair between your legs, and if you know what's good for you, you stay away from the ex. In fact, I don't think a punch is enough, how about a good ol' castration? Seriously, ether you have pride or you don't. And I would burn those letters just so she wouldn't have the satisfaction of reading them. Ohh how I love the brutality here on LS... Nothing works better to knock the "break NC" virus.... Thanks buddy really needed that... Keep the punches flowing - weekends are boring... Maybe I should start a fight club in London - any LS partakers????
bonpaw2008 Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Ohh how I love the brutality here on LS... Nothing works better to knock the "break NC" virus.... Thanks buddy really needed that... Keep the punches flowing - weekends are boring... Maybe I should start a fight club in London - any LS partakers???? Me!! I have the perfect first contestant!! I will ship him over and you can junk punch the **** out of him!!!! That vision makes me feel better
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 Me!! I have the perfect first contestant!! I will ship him over and you can junk punch the **** out of him!!!! That vision makes me feel better Ladies and Gentlemen - in the blue corner we have SMK a.k.a The Chubby Ninja (I am not chubby in real life - I used to be) and in the red corner we have Bon's EX..... fast forward to round 10 - ding - please applaud our victorious champ the Chubby Ninja...... oh oh oh - i found another thing to over analyse today - i think she broke up with me because I lost weight - when we first met i was 211 lbs I am not a sleep 145lbs..... in 7 months -.... I am a sexy mofo.... i thought maybe i could use that to screw with my head a little bit more...hehehehe
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 Duh..... On the plus side I am beginning to regain my confidence and some of my vainess (which was one of the things my ex loved about me)...
McGrupp Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 big fat rubber band on the wrist. still have mine on. everytime thought of pleasentness about the ex, big snap... ill teach ur brain to associate her with physical pain, rather then mental pitty which can become addictive.
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 big fat rubber band on the wrist. still have mine on. everytime thought of pleasentness about the ex, big snap... ill teach ur brain to associate her with physical pain, rather then mental pitty which can become addictive. I like the thought of this and its not the first time that I have heard of this... Mental note - get a big ass rubber band tomorrow.... BTW - dude wow - I read your story today - its guys like you that give people like me hope that life does go on.... Thanks
HighPlainsDrifter Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Ok people - I need someone to drive over and punch me in the face, and give me a good kicking.... Why you ask??? so that the physical pain can distract me from the thoughts of her that refused to get out of my head... For a fleeting moment I did have a passing thought of breaking NC before I banished it a second later, I did think of showing up at her doorstep and proffesing my undying love for her - then I remembered that I had a pair between my legs, I did think of posting the 8 page letter I have written - I punched the wall and then it dawned on me - physical pain takes away the memory for a while. oh and I would really like her to stop invading my dreams - yeah I miss her, yeah I wish I could be back with her, I miss the companionship, I miss the way she used to look at me, I miss spending a lazy saturday afternoon in the park with her, i miss laying next to her in bed stroking her beautiful hair, but its not there anymore and my GD dreams keeping on torturing me by reminding me of those.... f?*@a>::{}{{:][][;'l..'l'kjfhdhrudhgf (those are my explitives).... I hear you SMK. If that would work, then sign me up. I'm struggling bad not to break NC too. I guess it's day 3 for me now. The last time we talked we were supposed to get together briefly, and then she said she just needed to calm down a bit first because her head was such a mess. That was basically the last time I heard from her. I miss everything you just mentioned. If a beatdown works, send me one...
TaraMaiden Posted July 31, 2010 Posted July 31, 2010 Bon - I know what you mean we were talking engagement this year, wedding in 2012. God that is so dumb. You class One A-level chump. What idiot actually plans a wedding for 2012 - The Year of the UK Olympics??!?l R U Insane - !? Man, the clash would have been a minefield to negotiate...you dunkum! Cookie - hmmm I am gonna go to Hyde park with a good book and just be on my own for a bit... Who knows what may happen... Whatcha reading, Mr? Huh? HUH?? what's it about? I recommend 'The Book Thief'. Brilliant book. Fantastic. You couldn't put it down, it's amazing. What'll happen is that you sit down to read it for 5 minutes and suddenly discover you've been there for 2 hours.....your tea's gone cold and your sarnies have been nicked by the pigeons... and you don't care. It's a really good book. Seriously.
Author smk Posted July 31, 2010 Author Posted July 31, 2010 God that is so dumb. You class One A-level chump. What idiot actually plans a wedding for 2012 - The Year of the UK Olympics??!?l R U Insane - !? Man, the clash would have been a minefield to negotiate...you dunkum! we were thinking a winter wedding - in kensington gardens.... Well I obviously was insane there.... Whatcha reading, Mr? Huh? HUH?? what's it about? I recommend 'The Book Thief'. Brilliant book. Fantastic. You couldn't put it down, it's amazing. What'll happen is that you sit down to read it for 5 minutes and suddenly discover you've been there for 2 hours.....your tea's gone cold and your sarnies have been nicked by the pigeons... and you don't care. It's a really good book. Seriously. I am currently reading "taming tigers" - but I will definately order 'the book thief' and read it next... Depends what kind of sarnie it is - i would be pretty mad if my bacon roll got nicked...
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