sarahbaby75 Posted July 30, 2010 Posted July 30, 2010 Hi guys :-) I met this guy about 4/5 years ago, and we have always liked each.. after on off seeing each other, last year we decided to properly give it a go. He told me he was falling for me within a month, and told me he had never been with someone he felt like this about. I was the first girl he enjoyed taking out, and being around his friends, and told me I was the best thing to happen to him. I fell in love with him, head over heels, but always kept a guard up as my ex had cheated on me. Everyone would tell him how good i was for him, and kept him out of trouble!! And his friends say that they had never seen him in love like this before. I was the happiest i had ever been, and thought the world of this guy. He said he would do anything in the world for me, and the only guy i've ever cared about that much. One night we had a fight, and i thought he was going to break up with me, i got upset, and he told me he "would never give up on us since he knows a good thing when hes got it" As the relationship went on, he did things that would make me doubt my trust for him, and he wanted me to trust him more than anything. He "would leave his phone in the car" and not get in contact some nights, when i would supposed to be staying at his, etc. He would tell me a story of what happened, and his friend or brother would tell me another. In the end, i had enough i didn't believe silly lies he would tell me.. and then when i saw him within an hour i would forget it, and realise how happy i was with him. Eventually after a final night of lies, i read his phone, and found msgs from a girl saying that they had such a fun night with him and his friends... he told me a completely different story from that night. I was crushed... and had enough. Turns out the girl was seeing his brother, and i looked into the whole thing... but he was still lying to me. We broke up, and i was heartbroken. The next day i gave him his stuff back, and he said he was devestaed that we broke up too, and couldn't sleep etc. Over the next couple of days, i didn't sleep or eat... which lead me to collapsing and ending up in hospital!! I was so embarassed. he came to visit me, and i felt ridiculous for getting myself into this state. The next week we saw other before i went to stay with my friends down south for a couple of days. and agreed to meet up when I got back. We met up, and he said "he didn't have time for a girlfriend, and didn't want to hurt me" that night he said he would drop off my stuff... he didnt show up. the next day, he said he would drop it off, he never showed up. We then had a txting conversation, and he said he wouldn't run when i told him to (about dropping off my things) and that i messed everything up, and the best thing to happen to both of us. We were both out, drinking at different place.. and after a few drunken txts, met up. And spent the next couple of days together. Things were going well, and it seemed normal again. We fell out a couple of days later, and stopped talking again. That weekend i wanted to see him, and he didn't pick up the phone. He called me the next night drunk, saying that he misses me, and he would of done anything in the world for me... and he thinks iv been with someone else. He told me i was his world, and how could i not of trusted him.... We met up. and again that week (sober) and spoke briefly about things. The next week we saw each other, and i refused to sleep with him, and i didn't want to be used. After that night, i decided i had to stop speaking to him, cause this way was getting nowhere. So i left contact for a couple of days, i saw him in town, and he waved at me but i ignored him (not intentionally... but it felt good when i realised!! haha) and then the next day on my birthday he called me drunk, saying that he would of done anything in the world for me, and he just misses me and that i went "nuts" (calling and txting :S)after we broke up....... I spent the next couple of days with him, but something ust wasnt the same. I loved him, and still do. I had left some things at his flat, which he said he would drop off.. and never showed up! the next day i got in contact with his friend,, and told him i was done, and to tell him i would get my stuff when he wasn't about, and that i didnt want to see or speak to him again. i had enough!! I went got my stuff when he was out, and wrote him a letter, getting everything out my head... saying that i wasn't just to blame for the break up, and i felt he had been using me after the break up, when i was heartbroken it was just confusing me. I told him how much i cared about him, and would love him no matter what. I went out with my girls the next night, had fun for the time in ages... and ended up kissing another guy! At the time i didn't mind, but when i got home i felt sick to my stomach kissing someone that wasnt my ex! A couple of nights later, i called him and asked if he was seeing anyone else, he swore on everyones life he wasnt, and i said i kissed someone else and it made me feel sick to my stomach it wasn't him... he hung up the phone. I txt him, and asked why he hung up, and he replied "tired ... talk later..." The next day i asked him if he was annoyed? he never replied, then the day after my whole family fell out with me for "moping about" and they were fed up, I felt i was losing everyone close to me. I tried to get in contact with him, but he never got back to me. I'm away visiting friends just now, and sent him a final msg saying that i was sorry for the way i've acted, and he was the best thing to happen to me. Just hope that you dont hate me, cause i cant hate you if i tried. Love you x" We'v now not been in contact for 2 days, and i'm planning on sticking to NC because i can't be this upset over him anymore. Do youthink he'll ever want me back? I'm gonna be strong now though!! Any advice would be appreciated
Scruffydog Posted July 30, 2010 Posted July 30, 2010 Yeah be strong! And keep up the NC. As they say, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". I hope things work out for you. Sc
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