106rob Posted July 30, 2010 Share Posted July 30, 2010 (edited) well everyday has been a bad day no matter what i do,she comes into my head no matter how small,last night at work i did somthing completely random and for some reason she just came into my head (well one of the memories we shared together) the thing i was doing had no relevence toit what so ever in anyway she just comes into my head or i think of her at the most random times...but all the time! even in my dreams she has been in them in some way every day/night iv slept since the break up nearly a month ago now im now trying not to talk about it with people becuase they are getting pissed off now i can tell "just move on" is all i get now,but its easyer said than done as everyone knows i really thaught we had somthing me and her! when me and my ex ex split up we had been together 2 years! a lot longer than me and the ex had,and i was cut up then but was over it witin this time and was with someone else within 2 months (was more of a friends with benifits for a few months) and then i met my ex and everything changed! i felt difrent,things i never have before,she told me she felt the same,we made plans together! serios plans for the future! was just about to move in together! (witch notalso means iv gotta move house due to this not happening as i cannot afford it on my own) if she wasnt ready why did she say and do the things she did and lur me into a place where i genuine thaught we would be somthing! sure we were difrent in a lot of ways! im well into cars etc and shes into sport (rugby) but it didnt matter untill the split,then she threw the "we have nothing in common" one at me witch had never been a problem before :S so why now we got on so well(or so i thaught) never argued really,other than the odd bicker etc!,had a really good sex life together! and she said i was the best boyfriend she had ever had and treated her the best (she had a few in the past who just took the piss out of her and treated her like ****e!,im begining to think she must like the badboy,treat em mean kinda person becuase thats what she always seams to go back to and end up hurt herself) she also said she felt trapped,and i didnt give her any space? :S she makes out i was there every waking minuit! i was there alot but she never complained when i was,and i work 60 hrs a week, every other weekend aswell! i just cant get over the fact she never spoke to me about any of this,just decided that our relationship wasnt worth anything anymore and "the spark" had gone...... if id made her as happy as she made out surely that must be worth somthing? just dont know how to feel anymore tbh,just feel empty sorry for the long post but here is the only place i feel like i can talk about it now without pissing everyone/anyone off Edited July 30, 2010 by 106rob Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 30, 2010 Share Posted July 30, 2010 wow are you dating my ex by any chance???? was she keeping us in seperate rooms??? seriously same thing happened to me except mine was more due to her dad not approving of my skin colour.... I spent all of tuesday night through till this morning in the exact same place that you find yourself in. I was depressed, kept on havin anxiety attacks, was a complete wreck, couldnt sleep, and basically all i did was think of her... then all of a sudden just as quickly as it came it went away this morning. I woke up with a clear head... I am not going to lie, its not easy, the only advice I can give you is to continue posting here, read other peoples posts of who have been there and ride the wave. I tried drinking my way out of it, it didnt work, nothing worked, and then bang all of a sudden it was gone... Listen to some happy music, watch a funny movie, go for a walk, meet up with old friends, anything you want except call her - (i know how hard it is to try and be happy when you feel this way). Also try this nifty little trick i learnt. Stand up straight and look ahead. then tilt your head up to look at the ceiling and smile. this worked a lot for me, even if it brought temporary relief it made me feel a little better... do it as many times as you want... Also learn to embrace the chubby ninja within you, the same chubby ninja who will smother you with ice cream and jelly and chocolate sprinkles... (i know that made you laugh - you know you want to - go on - dont feel guilty about it - there you go - see that wasnt so hard)... buddy were all here for you and i assure you we have all felt the same way.... Link to post Share on other sites
Author 106rob Posted July 30, 2010 Author Share Posted July 30, 2010 lol cheers for that! and yea im just trying to keep positive about the future but just constany feels like somthing is missing....her another night tonight and im so glad i deleted her number becuase i proalbly would have txt her last night tbh! Link to post Share on other sites
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