cookie2 Posted August 12, 2010 Posted August 12, 2010 Yes I did google it... urban dictionary to the rescue "A social disease that affects millions of people - both male and female - that cockblocks a man or a woman from seducing or romancing a member of the opposite sex"
Author Username37 Posted August 12, 2010 Author Posted August 12, 2010 When I first read the word. I checked urban dictionary right away haha
Author Username37 Posted August 13, 2010 Author Posted August 13, 2010 End of the day thoughts. Felt a little better today. Thought of some positive times of our relationship. Felt nice but it made me want to contact her. I didn't. She's out (again) She's been going out on vacation a lot. She went to NYC, Chicago, LA, and now Utah. Bleh, she's having a good time.
Author Username37 Posted August 13, 2010 Author Posted August 13, 2010 Learned that my ex probably had GIGS. Gah, I'm learning new terms and things every frickin day XD
cookie2 Posted August 13, 2010 Posted August 13, 2010 Learned that my ex probably had GIGS. Oh yeah. I am quite sure mine had/has that too. But she made her bed, she can lie in it (or whoever else's)!
bonpaw2008 Posted August 13, 2010 Posted August 13, 2010 Oh yeah. I am quite sure mine had/has that too. But she made her bed, she can lie in it (or whoever else's)! OK can't find that one, it's either a horse-drawn carriage or something used for fishing??
Author Username37 Posted August 13, 2010 Author Posted August 13, 2010 Is such a stereotypical gemini. Very very bipolar and hypocritical haha
Author Username37 Posted August 13, 2010 Author Posted August 13, 2010 I have so many regrets. They're eating me up. If I only I did one thing, I would still have her in my arms...
bonpaw2008 Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 I have so many regrets. They're eating me up. If I only I did one thing, I would still have her in my arms... What would you have done different? This is just denial that it is over and that she quit you for HER OWN REASONS not something that you did. You need to stop beating yourself up Use....
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 What would you have done different? This is just denial that it is over and that she quit you for HER OWN REASONS not something that you did. You need to stop beating yourself up Use.... I know that it is over and that this break up wasn't all my fault. It's just that, I did something that lead to the break up. I spoke to her on the phone and she told me that THAT was the moment she thought of dumping me. I did this thing 2 days before she dumped me and it's eating me alive. We could've talked it out. In fact, we DID talk about it and she still was hurt by it. (I don't wanna tell you what happened)
bonpaw2008 Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 I know that it is over and that this break up wasn't all my fault. It's just that, I did something that lead to the break up. I spoke to her on the phone and she told me that THAT was the moment she thought of dumping me. I did this thing 2 days before she dumped me and it's eating me alive. We could've talked it out. In fact, we DID talk about it and she still was hurt by it. (I don't wanna tell you what happened) Handing out the {{{{hugs}}}} today....you know best, and if you did do something wrong you know what not to do the next time. Seriously honey...enough beating yourself up xoxox
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 Handing out the {{{{hugs}}}} today....you know best, and if you did do something wrong you know what not to do the next time. Seriously honey...enough beating yourself up xoxox I wish my next time could be with my ex.. My ex was my best friend too and right now, I need her badly. There are some stuff that I cannot just share with others and on LS. And the ONLY person who understood me was my ex. *sigh*
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 Is it true that first loves are the hardest to get over? And I hate how first loves get curious about other boys and they dump you and start doing that ****.
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 Going to sleep and waking up Felt strange. Felt....apathetic. The roller coaster is hitting new tracks now. Hopefully it will reach happiness soon. She still in my mind yeah, but more negatives have been popping up. And thinking about it, If I do get over this, friendship will still NOT be an option. Honestly, can you REALLY be friends with someone like my ex? Someone who just replaced you 3 weeks after and told you constantly "I love you" and "don't leave me?" when you were together?
smk Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 Is such a stereotypical gemini. Very very bipolar and hypocritical haha So it is true about geminis - my ex is one too and very stereotypical too.... Hehehehe... Except this time she provoked the wrong scorp - We will patiently wait till we sting.... Muhahahahahaha....
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 So it is true about geminis - my ex is one too and very stereotypical too.... Hehehehe... Except this time she provoked the wrong scorp - We will patiently wait till we sting.... Muhahahahahaha.... Haha, I'm a Cancer. I use my claws haha And damn man, Scorpio and Gemini? Isn't that not compatable? I hate their always moving behavior and their thirst for excitement. That kind of **** helps them move on SO QUICK and end up doing some slutty things IMO. Geminis are fricking crazy man.
smk Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 Haha, I'm a Cancer. I use my claws haha And damn man, Scorpio and Gemini? Isn't that not compatable? I hate their always moving behavior and their thirst for excitement. That kind of **** helps them move on SO QUICK and end up doing some slutty things IMO. Geminis are fricking crazy man. I don't really believe in that stuff and she used and yeah apparently Gemini and Scorpio are the worst possible match - hahahaha - we always used to say to each other that we would beat the odds - I guess not... Yeah I know what you mean about their quest for excitement - the thing with my ex though was when we were together she was always the boring one never wanted to really do anything out of her comfort zone yet now I hear she is doing all the things I always suggested we do... They are so indecisive and don't even know what they really want - and they all seem to have ADHD... One minute they want something the next they don't.... Arghh... Used to drive me mad sometimes...
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 I don't really believe in that stuff and she used and yeah apparently Gemini and Scorpio are the worst possible match - hahahaha - we always used to say to each other that we would beat the odds - I guess not... Yeah I know what you mean about their quest for excitement - the thing with my ex though was when we were together she was always the boring one never wanted to really do anything out of her comfort zone yet now I hear she is doing all the things I always suggested we do... They are so indecisive and don't even know what they really want - and they all seem to have ADHD... One minute they want something the next they don't.... Arghh... Used to drive me mad sometimes... My ex believes in that kind of stuff. She believes in a lot of crazy stuff. No ****ing way, my ex said that too! And guess what? We didn't beat the odds... That's strange. But they're enjoying the single life, so they could do whatever the **** they want. That's so true, they are. Those damn Twins My ex's indecisiveness bugged me too, but if you love someone, you accept their faults. Bleh...
smk Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 Dude are u sure our exes aren't the same girl.... Lol.... Yeah we accept them for who they are warts and all... Hell I changed for my ex... I have however discovered that my ex likes goes for guys who are insecure because it distracts her from her own insecurities - I had issues about my weight when we were dating and the thinner I got the further away she went... Ahh well as they it's their loss not ours - we are going to become better stronger people from this experience...
bonpaw2008 Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 Going to sleep and waking up Felt strange. Felt....apathetic. The roller coaster is hitting new tracks now. Hopefully it will reach happiness soon. She still in my mind yeah, but more negatives have been popping up. And thinking about it, If I do get over this, friendship will still NOT be an option. Honestly, can you REALLY be friends with someone like my ex? Someone who just replaced you 3 weeks after and told you constantly "I love you" and "don't leave me?" when you were together? GOOD FOR YOU! I am in the same place, we were always such good friends....(his words) which is obviously a total bunch of **** because his life is better off without me....**** them seriously....I have enough ****ing friends and i don't need one like that stupid piece of ****....
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 Today would've have been 1 year and 9 months. November 14th would've been two years... Time ****ing flies.
Author Username37 Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 It's the 14th. And I feel apathetic again. This feeling is so strange. I feel alone but at the same time, I don't care.... But it makes me wonder, does my ex remember that it could've been our 1.9 aniversary? I mean she remembered my birthday and my grandfather's death aniversary..
Author Username37 Posted August 15, 2010 Author Posted August 15, 2010 Tomorrow is officially 3 months broken up. Time flies when you're in total pain. So much **** happens in 3 months. I'll be seeing my ex a lot in a few days. Hopefully I can get my **** together.
AlwaysConflicted Posted August 15, 2010 Posted August 15, 2010 There's something I always try to tell myself that seems to help. You never know what tomorrow will bring. I don't have a girlfriend today, but tomorrow I might. I don't have a great job today, but tomorrow I might. Your entire life can change in 24 hours. Everything is temporary. That's what happened with my last ex. I wanted a girlfriend...didn't think it would happen...then one day I met someone and it all changed. Hopefully that will help you as it has helped me.
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