smk Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 we dont cos we are too busy getting on with our own lives... MAINTAIN NC members of our LS brosterhood (brother/sister hood)...
bonpaw2008 Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 You rock! So true, all I hear is blah blah blah and the same old lies
Author smk Posted July 27, 2010 Author Posted July 27, 2010 You rock! So true, all I hear is blah blah blah and the same old lies dude trust me I am on such a freakin roller coaster right now even I dont know what I am thinking anymore - its like my mind is full of all these little people running wild in their and i am sober not even high or drunk....LOL... i figured that for the first time in 6 weeks I am going to drown out the sounds for as long as I can... and hence here I am drowning it out.... As for tomorrow who knows... But right now I am in a strange lande... A land where emotions dont exist or maybe they do, in that case whats this one called - wait for it (drumroll) Ignorance is the mother f*****g bliss (excure my french people)..... Muhahahahahahaha
bonpaw2008 Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 Ugh what I wouldn't give to not have to think or feel! **** I hate that I have to think about this all the time, I hate that he doesn't think about it at all. He told me last week on the phone (yea only 6 days in NC) that he didn't feel the least bit guilty about all the times he ****ed with me or my emotions or really give a **** how much he hurt me. **** I am so stupid for wasting so many brain cells on this stupid ignorant ****.
Author smk Posted July 27, 2010 Author Posted July 27, 2010 Ugh what I wouldn't give to not have to think or feel! **** I hate that I have to think about this all the time, I hate that he doesn't think about it at all. He told me last week on the phone (yea only 6 days in NC) that he didn't feel the least bit guilty about all the times he ****ed with me or my emotions or really give a **** how much he hurt me. **** I am so stupid for wasting so many brain cells on this stupid ignorant ****. oh dont get me wrong its not like I am not thinking - there are just so many thoughts in my head right now that I just cannot be asked to try and decipher them all or focus on them... or maybe i have lost the last few remaining cells and have gone completely nuts.... hmmmm..... i say **** em - they arent worth the trouble we put ourselves through.... youre not stupid, i assure you we have all been there, hell i am still there, just having a moment of clarity today though after a 72 hr nightmare, or it could be the lack of sleep in the past 6 weeks finally blocking **** out in my head who knows - i cant be asked to deal with it right now... i decided i am going to deal with each hurdle as i come to it and have crashed head first into, whilst crushing a few more braincells...lol
bonpaw2008 Posted July 28, 2010 Posted July 28, 2010 i say **** em - they arent worth the trouble we put ourselves through.... i decided i am going to deal with each hurdle as i come to it and have crashed head first into, whilst crushing a few more braincells...lol I agree with the more trouble then they are worth, and that is where I am trying to get to....I know you keep telling me that you aren't ok but you seem very put together and on the right path to me Keep it up to give confidence to the rest of us
GrayClouds Posted July 28, 2010 Posted July 28, 2010 I know, I know the answer to this one! The ocean! Just like the putting a seashell to your ear.
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