messymichelle Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 the only way i can describe how im feeling at the minute is defeated. why is it that he came back grovelling then when i didnt run and kiss his ****ing feet with thanks did he turn around and disapear? what was the point? i didnt want to jump, i needed to make sure that i didnt end up back in square one again, i told him to sort out his problems and the ow and then i would think about it. he seemed so genuine, he looked me straight in the eye for ****s sake. he ****ing chased me, said he wanted me back, loved me and the kids blah blah blah shyte. i could rip his ****ing head off im so angry, flippin ego trips. im sorry but i have to vent im so flippin angry. i know from reading op posts that they do that to see if your still waiting, but i never let on any emotion because i dont why if im honest. i didnt want to seem weak if that makes sense. all thats going through my head now is that he changed his mind, he does want that obsessed horse faced cow after all. aaaaaahhhhhhhhh somebody say something
teanoranges Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 obviously this guy was a manipulative prick and feed off of you. Count your lucky stars he's gone and you got your chance to say no! not many people get that.
smk Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 the only way i can describe how im feeling at the minute is defeated. why is it that he came back grovelling then when i didnt run and kiss his ****ing feet with thanks did he turn around and disapear? what was the point? i didnt want to jump, i needed to make sure that i didnt end up back in square one again, i told him to sort out his problems and the ow and then i would think about it. he seemed so genuine, he looked me straight in the eye for ****s sake. he ****ing chased me, said he wanted me back, loved me and the kids blah blah blah shyte. i could rip his ****ing head off im so angry, flippin ego trips. im sorry but i have to vent im so flippin angry. i know from reading op posts that they do that to see if your still waiting, but i never let on any emotion because i dont why if im honest. i didnt want to seem weak if that makes sense. all thats going through my head now is that he changed his mind, he does want that obsessed horse faced cow after all. aaaaaahhhhhhhhh somebody say something let it out of your system - scream, shout, vent, rant, and just let it all out and then hopefully you wil feel better and then you will see what he really is. And if he decides to go to the OW then its his loss not yours TBH. Just try and be strong for yourself and your kids, and dont let him F*** things up for you.
bonpaw2008 Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 Stay strong, maintain NC, you know what he is trying to do. He is trying to get back in your head because he knows that you are moving on. He quit you, he quit your kids, he doesn't want you, he just wants to make sure that you always want him. Good luck!!
Author messymichelle Posted July 27, 2010 Author Posted July 27, 2010 i feel like punching the using, heartless excuse of a mans face in, does he not realise that by ****ing with my emotions its effects his kids too. im grateful that i kept my feelings in check around him even though i was dying inside im not even sure if i wanted the prick back it still ****ing hurt but when his actions didnt follow his words. but at least i know now what a spineless cunt he is, i just hope that this doesnt set me too far back when i feel myself that i was doing so well without him. it is his ****ing loss, if he wants that cow he can have her, she couldnt lace my ****ing boots **** him !!!!!
smk Posted July 27, 2010 Posted July 27, 2010 cunt - wow they dont censor it - sorry just found that funny... but on a serious note - our exes have a way of cropping up just when we are beggining to see things clearly, its like some sort of sick twisted way of them trying to exert control over us, and sometimes we allow it to them, sometimes we dont... It takes time, but your resolve seems strong, let the anger out here on LS, keep your emotions in check in front of him and the kids... seriously just keep doing what you have been, and dont let him f*** with your head...
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