Debilitation Posted July 26, 2010 Posted July 26, 2010 Okay, i don't need to tell you how we met and what not. I lived in Ontario, she lived in Quebec. I started to live there.. learn a bit of french but not a lot. I had no job, but I did have some income from a website, now I don't have that. I live off social services now, due to me not being fluent in french. Anyways, 2 years into our relationship, my family moved to Saskatchewan.. that's when I decided to move to Quebec.. I was there for 3 years until I really started to miss my family... like I missed them so much that I treated my girlfriend badly for it and I don't even know why :/ I had a few job opportunities but I was too ****ing lazy and ignored them.. I was jobless for like 2-3 years, and got money from Social Services I wanted to take schooling and what not for french and stuff but I was lazy... I don't even know why I was like that because I never was, i am the energetic kind of person. In April this year, I msged my mom saying I want to come down forever, I don't know what was going through my head but my gf saw the message and started to cry, I then felt sorry and I told her it was only for the summer.. Months passed by and here I am, at my familys house in Saskatchewan, 48 hours away from quebec via driving. She broke up with me because I left her.. but.. we still talk, we still have fun.. (She thought I was leaving for good cause I took everything with me, but.. thats not true because I wasn't leaving for good, she never believed me..) She sais she still wants me back but needs to think about it, I asked her to give me a second chance, she said shes thinking about it. I want to go back within a month.. if she does take me back (Which I know she will, we still go on cam, and you know.. do things xD we still have that spark and we still love each other. I'm 21 she's 19. She was my first, i was her first... We did many things together and have so many memories. I truly want to go back to her, In Saskatchewan I could have a job that pays 14$ an hour and get anything I wanted.. But I don't want that. i want her, I want love.. I will work harder just to be with her. My main question is.. Should I go back? Should I surprise visit her? Go up to her door near the end of the month and give her flowers? I know she will take me back because of the way she acts around me still, and how we do stuff on the internet via cam..D; And no shes not a whore >;l -- Should I go back and go to school, learn french, get a career, and have a future with her? Is that possible? Anything is possible if I work hard at it right? :/ I've been so confused these past few months that I think i finally need OTHER peoples opinions. PS. Yes, I know everyone needs their family but cmon, I'm turning 22 soon. it's time I get a life and start a career and a family... Learning a second language in Quebec is something interesting, and my gf said we can learn it together (she's not so fluent either) Anyways, please respond D; I'm SO confused, I want to go with her really bad but I dont know if I am making the right choice? :/
Author Debilitation Posted July 26, 2010 Author Posted July 26, 2010 Bump, really need some aid on this..
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