cbonilla1987 Posted July 24, 2010 Posted July 24, 2010 About a month and change ago me and my ex-girlfriend broke up, and I am still having a hard time with it. Let me explain why. First off let me give some background info into the relationship, and how it progressed. I met her at work last spring during my senior year at college, and I thought she was really pretty. I wanted to talk to her so I made small talk here and there. I was scared of commitment because my previous ex-girlfriend made me not want a relationship. I was also in a bad financial situation, and I wanted to fix that so that I could take care of someone. So I just kept it strictly to being friends. Anyways that following summer when school was done we worked more often and saw each other more often. I knew she liked me because she always offered to take me home, or help me out. Eventually she would come over and spend the night we would kiss and make out, but never had sex. I finally asked her if we should give a relationship a try, and she said yes. I found out I was her first boyfriend, which made me feel special. The following fall semester was my last semester at college, and due to my bad financial situation I couldn't find a place to stay. She actually offered to let me move in with her until I could find a place to stay, so from August to the end of October I moved in with her. It was actually a great thing because I felt so happy and so did she. I would clean her place, I would help her do things, basically it was like we were married, and I enjoyed it. Finally I got my own place in November until the end of December, but I still stayed at her place every night because she wanted me to. Things were perfect. I would get to wake up to her beautiful smile, and go to sleep next to her silky smooth skin. Eventually we started having sex around and I was her first in that too. The sex was great, being around her was great, and I soon realized that she was my best friend. After graduating we both went back to our parents, and we would see each other at least once every two weeks. We would plan our meetings and it usually involved her driving down about two hours because due to my bad financial situation I did not have a car ( I know loser). But she didn't mind because she said she loved me. Here is where things took a turn for the worse. In March she had an abnormal paps smear, and she thought it was HPV because, unlike her, I have had sex before with more than one girl. I was so worried thinking I gave her HPV, but a month later she found out it was nothing bad, actually apparently due to her birth control. During the time she was waiting for the results she became distant, and I couldn't blame her so I gave her her space. She also stopped seeing me as often as before going from once every two weeks to once every three weeks, and eventually once a month. Even though I was in a bad financial situation I saved up money and took her to Panama City Beach for her birthday because she wanted to be on the beach in April. Then she told me we weren't gonna be having sex anymore that night at the hotel, which was fine with me I told her I understand and that I loved her for who she was not what she does with me. After her birthday I didn't see her again until the Champions League final which was a month away. I told her even before we went to Panama City that she should ask off for that day so we could watch it. That day she comes over and says she has to work that her boss put her on the schedule. I saw her for less than three hours. In the end she told me that she stopped loving me, and that we were through, and used the cliche it's not you its me you are a great boyfriend. If I was such a great boyfriend why break up with me. Anyways I loved her dearly, and I just wish that one day I find someone better than her, at this moment I just don't know if it possible. Since we broke up I changed my phone number, not because of extreme NC but just because I changed plans, should I give her the new number? I wonder if she has tried to even call me or text me. And should I continue the NC? Thanks for reading if you got this far I know it is a novel, but I had to get it out.
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