Nikki Sahagin Posted July 23, 2010 Posted July 23, 2010 If you really cared about me...you wouldn't speak to me the way you do; with disrespect, insensitivity and judgement. You wouldn't assume you could speak to me this way, as though I am below you and completely unworthy of your respect. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't believe rumours, liars and gossips ahead of your one time best friend. You would speak with me calmly, maturely and honestly, rather than argumentally, with assumptions and anger. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't tell me things I have kindly claimed I do not wish to know about. You wouldn't boast about your new love interest with complete disregard for my wishes and feelings. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't take my kindness and forgiveness as a weakness, you would see them as admirable strengths. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't have said that you would grow up and mature whilst you were travelling and that when you came home we could try again. When all along you have found another love interest before you even left to travel. You wouldn't feed me lies and string me along, if you cared about me. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't try to turn people against me. You would realise you are a hypocrite and that you haven't matured at all. And that I have done nothing to you. If you really cared about me...you would have grown up, matured and come back to me to make us work. You wouldn't find someone new and forget me. This contradicted everything you said to me about never seeing us ending and coming back one day. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't have exploited my idealism, my hopefulness, my loyalty, my fidelity and my love for you. You wouldn't have fed into my expectations and hopes for you. If you really cared about me...you would fight before anyone destroyed us. You wouldn't believe lies, treat me like nothing and leave us on angry words. If you really cared about me...you wouldn't have constantly put me down and made me feel guilty when I was always faithful and loyal to you, when all the while, you were flirting with other girls and putting me down to them. If you really cared...you would be here, with me, making it work. You only know how to function when I am below you, subservient to you; guilty and running around to prove myself. I wont anymore. I was faithful, honest and loyal to you even if I had my flaws and made my mistakes. If you never believe that, I wont fight to prove it. I could have been Jesus, you'd still have crucified me for not being good enough.
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