My NC LOG

[earthfireuk]

I decided to do this no contact coping log as will be interesting for me to reflect on how I have progressed. Also will maybe help you guys by being able to relate to how I am feeling.

 

Well it’s technically only been 6 days of NC so far (txt msg last week) but we haven’t spoken for 2 weeks and I haven’t seen her for 5 weeks.

 

Day 7

 

Well again as expected this morning, I awoke with her in my head again along with feelings in my heart of loss and emptiness. It’s been 7 weeks since the break and as time goes on the strong painful, crippling feeling inside my stomach has died down. I’m just left with my thoughts of what could have been and how sad i am that she won’t try to make things work. I’m beginning to get a bit angry now as I am losing hope and the longer we don’t talk the more frustrated I get because it just proves she didn’t really give a damn. Or did she? I don’t know, maybe she once thought she loved me. I just don’t understand how someone could give me their heart and take it away so easily. I too was part of this relationship and my love isn’t that easily dissolved. I keep thinking maybe she is just fickle and likes the idea of a perfect relationship but when things involve actually trying she wants to move on to something more straight forward. I think she will be sadly disappointed as all relationships take commitment and work.

 

Well I’m going out for a drink with a female friend tonight (purely plutonic) so that might help me take my mind off my ex. Went out on a date last week with a girl which was kind of cool and am seeing her again in a week or so. It was nice to feel someone else is attracted to me. Although I couldn’t help but wish she was my ex. I did feel bad for thinking this but she is freshly broken up from her boyfriend too so we are both in the same situation.

 

When my ex and I originally broke up I set myself the goal of getting fit and stopping smoking. I am feeling down about that too as I have not been achieving all that I wanted to since the breakup. If I do see my ex in the future I want to be a better man (she hated me smoking ). I need to get motivated! It’s getting me down!

[earthfireuk]

Day 8

 

Well last night I went for a drink with my friend. It was really nice to catch up with her. Although I still couldn’t help venturing onto the topic of my ex. I guess it’s because I have been working through so many thoughts recently and I feel that I can’t really talk with many of my friends about it. They just really don’t want to hear it. They don’t say this but you can just see their attention fading as you pour your heart out. I just needed to get it off my chest. Sometimes validation is what is needed to help you put the workings of your mind to bed.

 

Well this morning I woke up and for about 20 seconds she wasn’t in my head!

 

Progress? I think so but not much!

 

I got to work as usual and then I got a text, looked at my phone and it was from her!

It was quite a lengthy message telling me about her work situation and asking how I was and she said it would be good to hear how I am. I haven’t replied yet. I think I will reply but later tonight. I have spent the past two months being at her beck and call only for her to pull further away from me. I do want her back, more than I have ever wanted anything but being too available hasn’t worked. In fact being too available for her and even light contact has made her frustrated because she knew I was still madly in love with her and that I had ulterior motives.

 

It’s a good sign she has contacted me but I’m not getting my hopes up.

 

I just want to say that I am doing no contact for two reasons. To see if she changes her mind and realises she wants to be with me and to also heal. I have to say I am healing a bit which is nice and if it does bring her back into my life eventually then that would be amazing. It’s the only way. I have thought about not responding to her at all but I don’t want to come across as rude.

 

It would be interesting to hear from the forum how you would play this? Would you respond to her message?

 

It is nice to know she is still thinking of me though. One of my worries was that she was just getting on with her life without a thought or worry about what she was leaving behind. I guess it is some kind of reassurance she still cares about me.

This girl means the world to me....

[earthfireuk]

[sIZE=3]Day 9 [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3] [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]Oh dear. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]Well I can see now why everyone says no contact is the best way to go. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]I responded to her text last night. It was very short, simple and friendly. Just “hey, sorry to hear about you leaving your job, hope everything is good with you etc”. I actually felt pretty good before I sent it, I didn’t even want to reply to her as it made me feel quite strong and liberated. Well even that short, simple response affected me. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]She didn’t respond (although I didn’t give her anything to respond to). I just woke up this morning feeling worse than I have done for a long time. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]It got me thinking that she was just texting me probably because she feels guilty about not contacting me for a week and didn’t want to come across as uncaring and inconsiderate. She is a good person and I know she would hate me to think she didn’t care. That’s not good enough for me though. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3] [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]Just that small response has got me thinking about her in a romantic way again. Wondering what she is up to she is up to it with. Someone else gets to enjoy the pleasure of being with such a wonderful person.[/sIZE]

[sIZE=3] I also keep feeling so sad that she clearly has no real desire to have me in her life. All she can muster is a pointless text message. It just makes me so sad that someone who at one point wanted me to be a huge part of their life cares so little that they have no desire to make any concerted effort. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]I even toyed with the idea of texting her this morning telling her how much I love her and miss her. Don’t worry that won’t happen. I’m not putting myself into that position again. [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3] [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]I’ve had the lyrics to a song in my head this morning by John Butler Trio. It’s kind of fitting.[/sIZE]

[sIZE=3] [/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]“[/sIZE][sIZE=3]What you wanna say,

Wait until you get home.

I'm sick of communicating now over the telephone.

Tell me how you feel,

For I am lonely too

Need you to know

I'm just as cold and numb as you.

 

But I could fly away,

Or I could be no one.

And you could be the

Sunshine falling over the mountain

 

You could come to stay

Yes you could come right home

I don't see why I have to

Live this life all alone.”

 

[/sIZE]

[sIZE=3]Really is a Beautiful song, sad but beautiful. Not what I need in my head right now though. [/sIZE]

[earthfireuk]

Day 10

 

Not sure what happened with my last post but it came out all wierd :S

 

Yesterday was a bad day. I was so close to sending her a heartfelt message telling her that I still miss her and love her very much etc. I managed to hold back though and not send it. I seemed to have reached some level of strength and acceptance which was then demolished by her sending me a text message. I wish I didn’t want to hear from her but the truth is I do, even though it ends up killing me inside afterwards.

I have a strange feeling that the distance is doing her good though and making her feel less uncomfortable about things. After the split she went a bit strange, like she was almost resentful of the fact I still loved her and wanted to be with her. I could feel the tension in her voice when we spoke. I have a feeling she is cooling down a bit, I keep imagining seeing her and it being really fun like it was when we first met. God I wish I could just call her invite her round to watch a DVD and snuggle. Haha the mind is a terrible thing! The weekend is nearly here. It’s the worst time of the week for keeping my thoughts off her. I have got some cool things planned though but know I won’t be able to help imagining her out on the town meeting guys and having the time of her life though. Strength is needed

[Sambo]

I'm on day 10 myself.

 

The only difference between our situations is my ex has meet a new guy and tells me she is falling in love with him.

 

Be happy your not in my shoes

 

Your doing great and I'm rooting for you.

[earthfireuk]

Sambo, thanks for the support. Im sorry to hear about your situation mate. It must be so hard. To be honest though It doesn't really matter if she is with someone else or not. She's not with me and your girl is not with you. They are both missin out on two wonderful guys and if they can't see that then it is there loss. Even though I don't think my ex is seeing someone else I have no idea really. Just wait mate. The chances are your girls new guy is a rebound and is probably an idiot. It may just make her realise what she is missing in you. Be strong mate, i'm with ya 100%.

[ngo_ng]

The only difference between our situations is my ex has meet a new guy and tells me she is falling in love with him.

 

Be happy your not in my shoes

 

 

same here! I've let that go and I haven't talked to her for the last 2-3 days since she told me she loved him and wants to be with him (we were still cuddling in bed and being romantic the day before that...imagine how betrayed I feel). I will see her tomorrow at a common friend's birthday. I'll go back on NC afterwards for good until we meet again at friend's events and such.

[earthfireuk]

Day 0..... oh dear

 

Well ... this weekend was a weird one. Emotions of loss, heartache, longing followed by feelings of freedom, happiness and excitement.

 

I contacted her..... (Emotions of loss, heartache, longing)

 

On Friday night I tried to call her, I felt I needed to speak to her (stupidly). She didn’t answer but then got a text 10 minutes later saying she missed my call as was working and asked if I was ok. I responded and said that I was fine but just wanted to catch up and see how she was. We texted a little and then I asked if she would like to do something on Sunday. She said she was busy this Sunday but maybe we could do something next weekend if she doesn’t have to work and that it would be nice to catch up with me too. I said that would be cool. She still seemed quite non committal though. She also randomly asked me if there was anything going on between me and a female friend of mine that I have been hanging around with allot recently. I told her that we were just good friends but she said she just had a feeling I was hooking up with her. I got the feeling she was feeling a little jealous and just wanted reassurance I wasn’t seeing someone else.

 

Got a date! (Freedom, happiness and excitement).

 

I then went to see a band play with some friends and there was this girl there (friend of a friend) who likes me. She seems like such a good soul and is pretty cute. I asked her out for a drink on Tuesday and she said yes! I’m actually pretty excited as most girls I have seen since the break make me wish I was still with my ex but this one is different. I don’t find myself comparing her to my ex or wishing she was my ex. I just like her for her  . She is special in her own way.

 

I feel quite happy today. It’s strange. I am starting to see that there are lovely girls out there who have to potential to offer me so much more than my ex ever could. I am still in love with my ex but now I have started questioning whether I fell in love with the Idea of her rather than the reality.

When she initially broke up with me she was still emotional, still caring. I felt that even though she felt she couldn’t be with me anymore that she still cared about me. Or on the other hand, maybe it’s because she cares about me that she has taken a huge step away. I just think she doesn’t want to hurt me anymore. She is a lovely person. That’s one of the reasons I fell in love with her. I don’t want to think of her in a bad way

[earthfireuk]

Well my no contact has completely gone out the window.

It’s not good. We have been texting on and off last week. We spoke on the phone last night and it was really nice. It’s like the awkwardness of the breakup has subsided.

She asked me if I was seeing someone and I told her that I have been dating this girl. She said she didn’t want to hear any of the details but was happy for me. She was really inquisitive as to who the new girl was. I didn’t give much away though as I didn’t really want to speak to her about it. All in all the conversation was really nice and it seemed pretty relaxed. I know I shouldn’t be but I am really looking forward to seeing her on Saturday. I guess after all the stress of the breakup it would be so nice if we could just have an amazing time together like it used to be.

 

I know this will probably set me back but I am pretty happy now and I just see this as a chance for her to see me in a different light again ( the old funny, easy going, happy me). I have been doing so much recently to work on myself and I have to say I feel like a different person. I have more energy than ever! I still love her though; I guess that’s the catch. I won’t put any pressure on her and will just focus on having a really nice time.

 

It’s just so strange though as when we spoke last night on the phone we just click so well. Maybe it’s me just imagining it but I don’t think so. It just makes me think why the hell doesn’t she want to give us another try? I don’t think she will meet a guy who she has this kind of connection with and I honestly don’t think I will meet another girl who I feel I have such a special connection with. It’s rare. Anyways im just going to play it cool and focus on having a good time with her.

 

I’m not sure what we should do though. I kind of want it to be something fun that doesn’t last too long. Any ideas people?

[bonpaw2008]

She asked me if I was seeing someone and I told her that I have been dating this girl. She said she didn’t want to hear any of the details but was happy for me. She was really inquisitive as to who the new girl was. I didn’t give much away though as I didn’t really want to speak to her about it. All in all the conversation was really nice and it seemed pretty relaxed. I know I shouldn’t be but I am really looking forward to seeing her on Saturday. I guess after all the stress of the breakup it would be so nice if we could just have an amazing time together like it used to be.

 

I know this will probably set me back but I am pretty happy now and I just see this as a chance for her to see me in a different light again ( the old funny, easy going, happy me). I have been doing so much recently to work on myself and I have to say I feel like a different person. I have more energy than ever! I still love her though; I guess that’s the catch. I won’t put any pressure on her and will just focus on having a really nice time.

 

It’s just so strange though as when we spoke last night on the phone we just click so well. Maybe it’s me just imagining it but I don’t think so. It just makes me think why the hell doesn’t she want to give us another try? I don’t think she will meet a guy who she has this kind of connection with and I honestly don’t think I will meet another girl who I feel I have such a special connection with. It’s rare. Anyways im just going to play it cool and focus on having a good time with her.

 

I’m not sure what we should do though. I kind of want it to be something fun that doesn’t last too long. Any ideas people?

 

I know that you asked for ideas to do on your date, but I am going to try to talk you back to NC. I know that you think that you are clicking, etc. but I think that she is jealous seeing that you have moved forward, and she has agreed to see you to get you back in the trap. If she wanted to be with you she would have asked you to be her bf again, not reluctantly agree to see you....

[earthfireuk]

Thats it. I am going to delete her number, her facebook.,everything that reminds me of her and put this to bed once and for all.

I met her today. It was really nice to see her again. Went to her house to pick her up and went inside she showed me her newly decorated bedroom as I had never seen it before. We were chatting and it was lovely. She said I look really good. She picked up the heartshaped stone I found for her on the beach when we were travelling in New Zealand and made a point of telling me she still has it on her bedside table. She then got changed in front of me ( seriously made me feel gutted ), she looked beautiful....

We then went out for a drink and talked. She was very inquisitive about the new girl im dating. She wouldn't drop it and wanted to know her name. I told her in the end but felt uncomfortable with the whole conversation. She said she was happy for me though.She also told me she had seen a guy a couple of times and feels a bit better about it now im seeing someone else. Her telling me that made me feel like my heart had been torn out of my chest and steamrollered! I just about managed to hold it together though. She then started talking about the relationship. She said that she felt that it was just bad timing for us as neither of us were happy in our lives at that time and we needed to find our own happiness before we could be happy in a relationship. I told her that I have been finding my happiness since the split and the whole travelling experience we had together has made me realise what I want from life and gave me the energy and passion to achieve it. We spoke about the good times. Had a laugh and played around. I drove her to her friends house, had a short hug, kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye.

 

Then my heart fell out of my arse (i didn't know how best to put it but this describes it pretty well). I drove round the corner and just sat there in my car staring into space. Whatever was going on around me was insignificant. This feeling of sadness inside me consumed everything. I managed to summon the energy to drive home. When I got home and then I stupidly sent her a text message saying;

"it wasn't the right time for us but there will allways be a part of my heart that feels if the timing was right we could have been amazing together. I know you don't feel the same and I respect that. I still have feelings for you though and I need to find an off button x."

 

She then responded with;

" it was really nice to see you and I do still care about you a lot. I just think as you say it just wasnt the right time for us. I'm really happy we can stay in touch now x"

 

I then sent: "I think its best if we dont speak for a while. My heart doesn't understand timing, even though I do. I still love you and I really don't want to anymore."

 

 

Now nothing... she hasn't responded and even if she did there would be absolutly no point in reading it. I shouldn't have texted her. I shouldn't have seen her. I shouldn't still be in love with her. This girl has messed me up. I honestly thought she was the one... now she is just a figment of my imagination. I love her more than I have ever loved a person in my life and this one person who I believed was part of my soul has walked away for no better reason than "it wasn't the right timing for us". In the future I am seriously going to have to question who I give my heart to (if I ever get it back). I must say to you guys though this wasn't just a girl I liked, then started dating and fell in love with. This girl i knew from the moment I met her that I want to marry her. This whole feeling of knowing she was the one was completly new to me and Im not the kind of guy who just falls for anyone. How can that certainty, that "knowing" feeling when you think you have met the one result in such a weak , lame reason for walking away? I honestly believed she felt the same way I did at the beginning. I believed she was with me in this beautiful world that surrounded us, our world. She burst the bubble and walked away and it hurts so much....

 

Im sorry for blurting out all this stuff. I probably sound like a crazyman now lol. I just can't really talk like this to anyone else and I know you guys here in the forum are absolutly amazing people who are going through the same thing. I just wish I had taken notice of all the people who told me not to meet up with her. I have never really been good at taking advice. I usually have to find out the hard way before I take notice.

 

Well I guess for me it back to the beginning, back to the start of my no contact and back to the start of the pain...

To all those who are thinking about making the same mistake I just did then please, please , please stop and think. You can see from my previous posts on this thread how well I was doing. I was feeling much stronger and now it's like I am back at square one again. It's there in black and white! Do not do it unless you know that the other person wants to reconcile. Anything else is just a casual meet because they once used to care about you and would like to see how you are doing. Is that really worth all the unimaginable pain you will feel when you realise you still love them more than anything in the world and they don't feel the same.

 

I feel like a very stupid right now. Stupid for seeing her and stupid for then opening myself up for more pain by telling her how I still feel about her. She must think im an idiot now......

Edited July 31, 2010 by earthfireuk

[spriggig]

It's good that you met her. If you had stayed NC through all of this? You'd still be wanting to talk to her and meet her. This way your heart knows what your head has been saying all along.

 

Back into NC with you now. There you go.

[earthfireuk]

Thanks Spriggig, I needed to hear that. I just feel so stupid. There was a part of me that was foolishly thinking that the time apart may have re-ignited her feelings for me. I still had a tiny little bit of hope. That hope has now gone which I guess is a good things. It kind of eats away at you and I couldn't help but think " what if I meet up with her, maybe it will instigate us getting back together". Well, I can safely say that my hope has now been taken away. Im just left feeling silly for texting her, telling her that I still love her. If anything now she will probably want to run a mile! I should have kept my composure but that feeling in my heart is just far too strong for me to control. I wont need to anymore as I am never going to speak to her again. I have been through too much pain already..

[earthfireuk]

This morning, She responded to the last text I sent her yesterday telling her I don't think we should talk for a while. She said " if thats how you feel then i won't get in touch. Please contact me when you are cool with us xx"

 

I don't know ..... i don't think I will ever be cool with us being friends. She doesn't give a crap anymore and It hurts.

 

I keep thinking that when we first met I wasn't happy in my life. I felt stuck in a job I wasn't happy with, was in a financial mess, didn't really do anything constructive with my life. I met her and we went travelling together. During that time I struggled with travelling and my own insecurities which put pressure on our relationship for the four months we were away. We came back from travelling and she ends our relationship becuase my insecurities came out during our time away and she didn't like what she saw. I was unhappy with my life and the experience of going away and having to deal with a relationship at the same time made that apparent. It cause her to lose feeling for me. That whole experience of going away and being tested has made me a much stronger, better person. I have taken up some cool hobbies, I no longer have panic attacks (I did when we were away). I feel more confident and self assured. I am going to buy a camper van and go on a road trip around europe. All the things I used to dream of and the experience of going away and the break up has caused me to change for the better. I am becoming the person that she would really want to have a relationship with. Its just such a shame that because I underwent that change in her presence and had to be reduced to an insecure mess in front of her to realise what I need to do to make me a happy, well rounded person. That whole process caused her to ditch me.

 

I suffer from anxiety and when we were away I had panic attacks and breathlessness which caused me to withdraw quite allot. This made me feel I wasn't able to enjoy my time there and as a result put a huge amount of pressure on our relationship. I was reduced to a shadow of my former self. Because of that experience I am now so so so so so much stronger. I havent had a panic attack since. Im doing great in my life and feel like I will be completly confident with travelling in the future. It has made me a better, stronger person. The kind of person she would want to be with. I just cant help thinking that If I had gone away for the first time on my own and undergone that change without her having to witness it, we could have been so happy together.

 

The experience that has improved me as a person, made me the person I wanted to become and who she would want to be with. Is the very thing that tore us apart... funny how the world works. Something always has to give. There always has to be an equilibrium.

Edited August 1, 2010 by earthfireuk

[earthfireuk]

Today I woke up feeling quite sad. Not frustrated sad, not the " I want her back" sad. Just sadness mixed with acceptance, pure love and a feeling of sheer appreciation for the wonderful, positive impact this girl has had on my life. Im begining to truely accept the reason why she walked into my life and feel such love for her in my heart because I know that meeting this girl has really changed me for the better. She is what I was looking for. Just not in the way I would liked her to have been. Maybe she was my soulmate but instead of being there as a partner she was more a sort of guide to help me find myself. Im not religious but I have to say at that time of my life before I met her of my I was unknowingly in search of something to help me realise who I really am and what I really want from life. Im beginning to beleive that was her puropse. She deffinitley gave me a wakeup call and now I actually feel awake again!

 

After the text yesterday she sent me telling me she won't be in contact with me and for me to contact her when I'm happy for us to be friends. I decided I wanted to send her one final message.

 

I texted her saying " You will allways be reflected in my eyes. My time with you helped me become who I was destined to be. It makes me sad that your love for me was sacrificed in the process. When we were travelling together I saw you, all of you and loved you for the good and for the bad. I loved you for who you were. Not the small part on the outside that everyone sees but the whole of you. I see in you how special you are and I truely hope you find someone who can see the beauty in you I see. I won't be in contact . I know you understand. Be all that you are and all the happiness you deserve will forever surround you. You mean alot to me Hanna x

 

I know sending this wasn't a good Idea but I felt I needed to. She probably skim read it, thought "oh dear he's still got it bad" and deleted it. It wasn't to try to change her mind. I sent it for me. To close this book and finally move on properly. I now feel like I can. I have no interest in holding on to the pain and suffering that I have held onto for the past 9 weeks. I need to get my action plan started. I need to now use this experience to propell myself forward and achieve all that I ever wanted. Watch this space!

[earthfireuk]

Actually, after reading that message I sent her today. Im starting to feel pretty silly. Sending that probably just made her think I was wierd. I hope she didn't as I would hate for her to think that. I just wanted to send her a final message conveying how much I think of her as a person. ... seriously regretting that now though...... actually im pretty much regretting every emtional thing I said to her after the breakup. I do hope she doesn't think im losing it lol. In fact the reason i feel silly is because im looking back with a clearer head and feel foolish for give so much of myself. Why do I do all the wrong things????

Edited August 2, 2010 by earthfireuk

[HopeLove]

Don't think is silly. You said what you are feeling. She feels different about you but she will always remember she had a bf who really loved her despite she couldn't love him as much as he did.

[earthfireuk]

Thankyou Hopelove. Just that short sentence made me feel a million times better. That was a really lovely thing to say. I hope she does go forward in her life knowing that and not thinking bad of me. How are you holding up? Haven't heard from you in a while. Has he come to his senses yet?

[HighPlainsDrifter]

Thankyou Hopelove. Just that short sentence made me feel a million times better. That was a really lovely thing to say. I hope she does go forward in her life knowing that and not thinking bad of me. How are you holding up? Haven't heard from you in a while. Has he come to his senses yet?

 

Sorry Earth...

This is a heartwrencher too.

I could see myself doing the same thing.

I guess it's better to at least express your feelings knowing that you've done all you can. At least you have no regrets in that department.

She knows how you feel now, and that's all you can do.

Much like me.

Sucks bro, but I'm right there in $hitville with you...

Best wishes

[HopeLove]

Hi earthfireuk, no, he didn't came to his senses yet .

I posted something today in "coping" with the tread "will I ever move on?", so if you want an update have a look and and coment as well if you like.

[earthfireuk]

Sorry Earth...

This is a heartwrencher too.

I could see myself doing the same thing.

I guess it's better to at least express your feelings knowing that you've done all you can. At least you have no regrets in that department.

She knows how you feel now, and that's all you can do.

Much like me.

Sucks bro, but I'm right there in $hitville with you...

Best wishes

 

Thanks HPD, yeah i feel better now for telling her exactly how I feel. It wasn't the first time though.. but it will sure be the last. She will get nothing from me anymore. I have done all I can. I feel silly for letting someone do this to me.

Hope you doing good mate.

[earthfireuk]

I got a reply today to the final heartfelt text I sent my ex on Sunday.

 

She replied saying

“Hey Alex, sorry I didn’t reply sooner. I know you didn’t want a reply but I wanted to say thank you for the lovely message.

You do say the nicest things. You know that I care about you still. You’ll always have a very special place in my heart. Xxx”

 

I was so surprised she replied.

I’m not sure what to think though really? I guess there is nothing really to think. Just keep on feeling...

 

I’m happy she responded and it’s lovely to know she took it the way it was intended.

 

I don’t think I will ever stop loving that girl. I will learn to deal with her not being in my life, but will never be able to stop loving her.

[HighPlainsDrifter]

Thanks HPD, yeah i feel better now for telling her exactly how I feel. It wasn't the first time though.. but it will sure be the last. She will get nothing from me anymore. I have done all I can. I feel silly for letting someone do this to me.

Hope you doing good mate.

 

Sometimes it's hard to know exactly when enough is enough. I think there is a fine line between expressing yourself and letting them know how you feel, and then becoming a nuisance. You gotta kind of let them know without trying to throw a guilt trip on them I think.

 

Me, I'm not sure what exactly to do, because I made progress a week ago, but then it kind of petered out. She's not done with her divorce yet, so I guess that's the first thing that she needs to do, and I should have stuck to that when I first met her. That was my plan, but the flesh was weak.

 

Good luck earth. It's been tough for me. I only hope it's better for you.

[earthfireuk]

Yeah i know what you mean. i don't think i have ever been a nuisence. Which I guess is reassuring. I have been worried about overstepping the line but think I have managed to keep over the right side. She replied today though with a nice response so I guess that can only be a good sign. I don't know your story but I will read your thread tonight mate. Would be interesting to hear your story. At work right now, have to say this site has been a life saver for me. I don't know what I would have done without it.

[HighPlainsDrifter]

Yeah i know what you mean. i don't think i have ever been a nuisence. Which I guess is reassuring. I have been worried about overstepping the line but think I have managed to keep over the right side. She replied today though with a nice response so I guess that can only be a good sign. I don't know your story but I will read your thread tonight mate. Would be interesting to hear your story. At work right now, have to say this site has been a life saver for me. I don't know what I would have done without it.

 

That's cool Earth. It's kinda a long read though man... Quite the roller coaster, which puts me right in with everyone else on this board. Everyone here has problems. That's the reason we are here.

 

I hear you about this site though man. I've been really leaning on it lately for my sanity... I guess maybe we can all help each other get grounded. Best wishes today Earth...