I cant do this on my own.

[xx.Kael.xx]

Hi, I'm kael. 4 days ago I went through hell. My girlfriend of 2 years left me because she felt like she couldn't trust me. I'm not a guy who cheats, or abuses his lady so I wasn't sure where she got this from. We've broken up a few times in the past, and each time we came back, we knew it was together forever...not now. 4 nights ago I told her I was upset over the fact she wanted to move in with a gay guy. Now, we had a long distance relationship so it bugged me. I brought it up and she freaked...told me I didn't trust her, and she didn't trust me for thinking she would cheat. She went to work that night , and I called her after. Well...long story short, we both cried for hours after she split. At least I did. Worst part now is, we aren't talking for 2 months until we can be comfortable as friends. Her words, not mine. I feel like I should be dead...its my birthday today..and it just feels wrong and sickening not being with her. It pains me to think if there's another guy...or if she forgot about me already. We had marriage plans, at 20...all gone. This birthday is the worst...20 and heartbroken to the max. I don't want anyone but her...I can't sleep...only cry and pray she comes back. But she made it clear its over...help me...please. I don't want to spend the rest of my night upset. God she's beautiful...and id die for her. Together or not. Sincerely, kael.