AlwaysConflicted Posted July 17, 2010 Share Posted July 17, 2010 I'm not sure what stage I'm at in the grieving process because I thought I was done. I have trouble remembering the bad memories of her and when I do remember them I sort of pretend like they weren't that bad. I accepted her for her faults, but she didn't accept me for mine. To her I am just another short term relationship that didn't work. Another boyfriend on her path to finding her dream man. She meant much more to me than just another girl. We had great chemistry and I thought we got along. Maybe I zigged when I should have zagged. I thought we were communicating, she thought we were arguing. We've been broken up 2 months and none of it makes any more sense to me. Where the hell did my girlfriend go? and how did I lose her? Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 I'm not sure what stage I'm at in the grieving process because I thought I was done. I have trouble remembering the bad memories of her and when I do remember them I sort of pretend like they weren't that bad. I accepted her for her faults, but she didn't accept me for mine. To her I am just another short term relationship that didn't work. Another boyfriend on her path to finding her dream man. She meant much more to me than just another girl. We had great chemistry and I thought we got along. Maybe I zigged when I should have zagged. I thought we were communicating, she thought we were arguing. We've been broken up 2 months and none of it makes any more sense to me. Where the hell did my girlfriend go? and how did I lose her? AC - you seem to be doing better than I am - but as everyone said it supposedly does get better - and to be honest I really want to get to that day and I am sure so do you... I know that feeling of not accepting her faults cos I feel excatly the same way - you have no idea how much of a relief it is to realise that I am not going crazy.... I have never understood the logic behind some peoples thinking - if we express ourselves we are arguing - if we dont we are being distant... I have stopped trying to make sense of all of this now... Seriously just take it one day at a time... ( I am currently working on a 2 hourly schedule now - up from an hourly schedule last week - so i guess that could count as progress).... I am in one of those mad overly excited moods at the moment - I have been running like forest gump yet I cant sleep.... Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 ah AC one of them days eh? all gets too much sometimes, Im slowly moving on, i sent an email, for my closure, basically telling her that i just want her to be happy, At least im the bigger person now, she didn't bother replying, no surprise really, she probo thought i wanted to get back together with her, yeh right, in time they will see what they have lost, and the tables will turn Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 ah AC one of them days eh? all gets too much sometimes, Im slowly moving on, i sent an email, for my closure, basically telling her that i just want her to be happy, At least im the bigger person now, she didn't bother replying, no surprise really, she probo thought i wanted to get back together with her, yeh right, in time they will see what they have lost, and the tables will turn i am so tempted to send a hand written letter for closure, but I have actually accepted that its pointless - if i do send it i will have false hopes that she may come back, she may reply, and when she doesnt i will be even worse then where i started... dude good on you that you got your closure... i cant wait till the tables turn... ohhh i wait for that day when she realises that i was a damn good catch and i can be a knob for a bit before reuniting like in the movies - but lets be honest chances of that happening are slim to none... instead i have chosen to focus on getting an awesome 6 pack albeit it will probably approaching winter by the time i get to that point but hey who cares - i will put up a pic on FB...lol... Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 haha i hear ya bro stick at it, and when she see the new you, who knows, maybe you'll have a gorgeous gf aswell the point is, everything happens for a reasons, the reason can sometimes get blurred but in the end, it will all fall into place, where one door closes, several more open chin up lads :p Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 (edited) haha i hear ya bro stick at it, and when she see the new you, who knows, maybe you'll have a gorgeous gf aswell the point is, everything happens for a reasons, the reason can sometimes get blurred but in the end, it will all fall into place, where one door closes, several more open chin up lads :p ahh you see the sick twisted irony behind this is that i know that things will get worse before they get better...my mind knows this - except right now my heart is ruling my freakin mind....... I do believe that everything happens for a reason - this relationship taught me something - never give another person the power to destroy you...... but yeah when one door closes another one does open... the thing is - no one else will ever compare to her - she had this magical spark to her - she was so simple yet she was the most beautiful girl i have ever set my eyes upon.... her hair, her eyes, her nose, her lips, everything about her is perfect... and no one will ever come close to her....i miss her her right now... i wish i was with her right now - i wish i could just tell her how much i love her - i wish i could tell her how much she means to me.... c'est la vie.... Edited July 20, 2010 by smk Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 yeh, believe me, there are times when i want to go down and get on my knee tell her every thing will be ok, asking her to come back, i remember, when we just broke up, we hugged for the last time, and things i took for granted, like a simple hug just felt amazing, i remember the smell of her, she smelt so nice :lmao: all i want is one more kiss from her, i want to be able to fell her press against me, the times we embraced in the park while walking the dog, all the things i took for granted gone, if only man AH DAMMIT YOU'VE GOT ME STARTED :laugh: Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 yeh, believe me, there are times when i want to go down and get on my knee tell her every thing will be ok, asking her to come back, i remember, when we just broke up, we hugged for the last time, and things i took for granted, like a simple hug just felt amazing, i remember the smell of her, she smelt so nice :lmao: all i want is one more kiss from her, i want to be able to fell her press against me, the times we embraced in the park while walking the dog, all the things i took for granted gone, if only man AH DAMMIT YOU'VE GOT ME STARTED :laugh: what the f*** are you talking about my break up???? i remember all of those things - did she have the dog???? all i can think off is those things - i stilll have some clothes that she laundered for me and i still havent worn them and they still smell of her and her laundry detergetn (i know its sad) but i think i refuse to wear them simply because i know if i do then i will lose those last few bits i have of her... i have her hand written notes and the first £5 and only money that we had committed towards buying our house together - its still in my wallet - and i look at it everyday and think of her and i miss her.... I realised that I love kelly - i will not love another as much as i love her - i gave her my all, my everything.... i really miss her and wish i could just call her and tell her how that i love her for everything she is - and would never change her... Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 what the f*** are you talking about my break up???? i remember all of those things - did she have the dog???? all i can think off is those things - i stilll have some clothes that she laundered for me and i still havent worn them and they still smell of her and her laundry detergetn (i know its sad) but i think i refuse to wear them simply because i know if i do then i will lose those last few bits i have of her... i have her hand written notes and the first £5 and only money that we had committed towards buying our house together - its still in my wallet - and i look at it everyday and think of her and i miss her.... I realised that I love kelly - i will not love another as much as i love her - i gave her my all, my everything.... i really miss her and wish i could just call her and tell her how that i love her for everything she is - and would never change her... yeh she had a great dane, called Mia here listen to this man http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EHAo6rEuas Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 yeh she had a great dane, called Mia here listen to this man http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EHAo6rEuas i have a westie called mia.... love the song - my song of choice at moment is its not the best of songs to list to but somehow for some twisted reason it works.... Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 i have a westie called mia.... love the song - my song of choice at moment is its not the best of songs to list to but somehow for some twisted reason it works.... man, that's a tear jerker right there man :o Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 man, that's a tear jerker right there man :o for some reason this does really breaks me up Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 and another http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_i1vMK4XaPk Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 for some reason this does really breaks me up hows this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vRLlQU7YWug Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 20, 2010 Share Posted July 20, 2010 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CE-oV8PTH_E&feature=related Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 all the dumpees seem to have to same playlist... LOL... nothing beats at least for me cos i knew she had alot of things in her life going on... Link to post Share on other sites
ResetReality Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 i think we should give AC his thread back XD sorry about the hijack:laugh: Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 agreed - AC you can have the thread back... sorry for the highjack...LOL Link to post Share on other sites
Thorgs Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 My song of choice right now. Ok, AC you can have your thread back now! Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 AC sorry for this - Thorgs - like the song - heard it once before - awesome... BTW guess what - the ex txted today - i kept strong and didnt text back.... Link to post Share on other sites
Thorgs Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 AC sorry for this - Thorgs - like the song - heard it once before - awesome... BTW guess what - the ex txted today - i kept strong and didnt text back.... Lucky! I wish mine would text me back so I could ignore it to boost my self-confidence. Anyways, good job man! Link to post Share on other sites
Author AlwaysConflicted Posted July 21, 2010 Author Share Posted July 21, 2010 Haha, I didn't even realize anyone had replied to my thread. I've been listening to all those songs you posted. Some good ones in there. What's mine is yours. Please continue to chat in this thread. It makes me feel good. Link to post Share on other sites
smk Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 Lucky! I wish mine would text me back so I could ignore it to boost my self-confidence. Anyways, good job man! dude thats the worst thing - i wish she wouldnt have texted cos the minute i saw it i fell straight back into the bottom of the pit.... it was the most random text and i am thinking that she was meant to send it to someone else but ended up sending it to me by mistake... Link to post Share on other sites
Thorgs Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 Actually, I'm a country guy so this song is awesome... and this one...more random than anything Link to post Share on other sites
Thorgs Posted July 21, 2010 Share Posted July 21, 2010 dude thats the worst thing - i wish she wouldnt have texted cos the minute i saw it i fell straight back into the bottom of the pit.... it was the most random text and i am thinking that she was meant to send it to someone else but ended up sending it to me by mistake... Oh, I'm sorry. If my ex text me back I would hope it was something like, "Hi, how are you?" That way I know she's thinking of me but NC would make her realize I'm not there for her like I used to be when we were dating. Sadly, I think she's moved on. Link to post Share on other sites
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