Gattica Posted July 17, 2010 Posted July 17, 2010 I was dating a man that I work with and it recently ended. We have been keeping things professional and nothing more and I want nothing more. He really hurt me and he knows that because I told him. I have been slowing getting over it and I no longer dread going to work knowing I will have to see him. So why am I letting something so stupid bother me? Well, I am driving down the road leaving work and I am listening to the radio. My hands are on the top of the steering wheel and I am moving/lifting them up and down to the beat. He is also driving down the road in the opposite direction, coming back in to work and he thinks I am waving at him and he waves at me. I don't want to give him the impression that I am now ok with how he conducted himself during the time we were seeing each other. I know I shouldn't care what he thinks, especially since I wasn't waving at him, but this is bothering me. UGH! I hate feeling like this!
txsilkysmoothe Posted July 17, 2010 Posted July 17, 2010 I can understand your feelings. Just think what a dork he is to actually think you would wave at him. If not now, one day you will find it humorous.
oldfashiongirlie Posted July 17, 2010 Posted July 17, 2010 Sometimes little things like that trigger the emotions you've recently had for him. I've read the mouring process doesn't come in order, maybe you felt that original rage over what he did to hurt you. Allow yourself the chance to feel anything, and don't question your emotions, cause i think that is the worst thing we can do. Let it all flow.
Author Gattica Posted July 17, 2010 Author Posted July 17, 2010 I can understand your feelings. Just think what a dork he is to actually think you would wave at him. If not now, one day you will find it humorous. I was actually laughing right after it happened for the exact reason you gave. I then became fixated on it and starting thinking he must really think he is something else if I am going to be waving at him when it has only been a month since things ended. I know I have no control over what he thinks and I KNOW that I didn't wave at him, but... I keep thinking actions speak louder than words and he is thinking I am waving at him...UGH! Oh well. I need to keep on keeping and can't let this get to me. Wish me luck! LOL
Author Gattica Posted July 17, 2010 Author Posted July 17, 2010 Sometimes little things like that trigger the emotions you've recently had for him. I've read the mouring process doesn't come in order, maybe you felt that original rage over what he did to hurt you. Allow yourself the chance to feel anything, and don't question your emotions, cause i think that is the worst thing we can do. Let it all flow. I hear ya. I am not having a problem letting the emotions flow. I cry quite a bit these days. It is really hard to move past what happened seeing as we work together so I am reminded of things 5 days a week at work. I also found out some interesting things about him after the break up, including that he is a player and it is something he has gone on about with male coworkers. I don't want him to think I am over how he disrespected me and that is what I feel he may be thinking. Again, I have no control over what he is thinking, but it is all I am thinking about this weekend. I did not initially wave at him...though he thinks I did, I did kinda wave back when I saw him wave. It was just an automatic response. He probably thinks I waved at him twice! :lmao: Am I going crazy?
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