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[Sadcakesleo]

Hey everybody. I've been on and off this thing for years for a variety of reason but mainly because of my most recent ex. We were together for 5 years and lived together for 3. We broke up 6 months ago. She has a new boyfriend and I'm still single. Truthfully I have only been nc for a month. She's tried calling a few times and texting but after texting her once that she is dead to me I haven't attempted to contact her. I am actually doing ok. When we were together I had no friends and I weighed 205 lbs and really never did anything. Now I'm busy alot with friends and work out and run everyday. I play 5 on 5 bball twice a week and softball once a week. Im going to start volunteering at a hospital soon to occupy another day. I weigh 170 now with muscle, so everyday my confidence has grown. Ive met a few girls and been on dates but nothing serious at all. I no longer want to be with her, as time has gone on i realize she wasn't right for me. But I do admit I miss her sometimes, I don't know if I truly miss her or her company though. The only time I really think about her is at night before I go to bed. All kind of thoughts go into my head but I just let it pass and calm down. I am at a point now where I kinda don't know where to go from here. I want to be single, to continue working on me and bettering myself and learning more about myself. Ive always been in a relationship since 16 and im 26 now. But I feel like I won't truly get over her until i meet someone else. It's been kinda rough on me dating wise because I take rejection personal so if just one girl rejects me it kinda brings me down. I feel like dating right now is too much work but I also feel like if I don't date I am never going to get over my ex completely. People say that if you work on yourself then someone will come along. but when? I don't know if I should continue pursuing girls and deal with rejection or stay single and deal with the lingering feelings with my ex about how she must be happy with her new man and I wish I had a gf and such. I don't really no where to go from here. ant advice would greatly help me. I'm feeling kinda down right now