PSV Posted July 15, 2010 Posted July 15, 2010 I feel like I want to change quite a few things about myself, but I can't really pinpoint what those things are. I think they mostly stem from really not having many friends. I'm really pretty shy, and I've been working on changing that for years now. I have an awesome, awesome girlfriend, but I know that I can't spend every minute with her, even though I definitely could, and would enjoy it. Of course I'm a completely different person around her, and I think that's actually the real me. She knows I'm way different when other people are around, and does give me plenty of support. It's just frustrating. When I'm not with her, I don't know what to do with myself. I've been a pretty serious musician for most of my life, but haven't played any music for a couple of months now. I just recently got a dog, and I think that's part of the reason why I haven't played much, but still.. I can definitely find time to do it. I just don't, and I don't like that. That brings me to believe my situation stems from not having anyone around besides my girlfriend. It's taking over my thinking, and I'm not focusing on my other interests. I had a few friends a while back, then they all kind of fizzled out and we grew apart, or they moved away. I've tried going to places with my dog, but it seems like every dog park is just full of old people. And unfortunately, the only people who talk to me while I'm walking her are either adults or girls. Girls would be cool if I didn't already have a girlfriend, and being able to talk to them is still nice, but I just need friends. I've definitely thought about checking out clubs, because of my interests in music and film, but it seems like the members of groups on meetup.com and the like are just wayy older than me. I feel like one of my best prospects has been eliminated too, at least for the time being. I'm really into rock climbing, and am part of a gym that I went to pretty regularly. There were plenty of pretty cool people there that I would like to be friends with, but I injured my finger a few months ago and took a break for a while. Once I tried climbing again, the pain came back instantly, so now I'm forced to take even more time off. I'm telling myself that once school starts up again things will change, and I guess I'll have to see if that works out. In the mean, though, I just feel like I have no choice but to sit around and do nothing.. And I'm not sure what I have to ask exactly, but any sort of input will be appreciated.
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