confusedlover10 Posted July 14, 2010 Posted July 14, 2010 (edited) So here is the scoop. I've been dating this guy for one month shy of 3 years and I just feel like things aren't going the way they should and I'm finding myself unhappy. We're 4 years apart and I've never thought it was a problem until now. Our relationship has been pretty bumpy the entire time but now I've decided that I want to go to Grad school after I graduate from undergrad in one year. But not just any school, it's one that's 2 hours away. We've lived together basically since day one but after a year we finally got our own place together. A few months in I found myself wanting to leave but I felt stuck so I stayed. As things got better I forgot about the bad and just moved on with him in life and just cherished the good times and dealt with the bad. Some of which included him emailing other girls and catching him on online dating websites (foolish for staying... I know). Needless to say I don't trust him at all. About 2 months ago I brought up the idea of Grad school and he was totally against the idea and told me that if I went to grad school that our relationship would be over and that he wouldn't wait for me. With this in mind I thought more and more about going and I just can't not go because of him and our relationship. I understand that he is ready to get on with life since he is 26 but I'm only 22 and I can't cut my young life short because he is ready for me to be an adult. My decision to go to a school 2 hours away stems from wanting to go to a school in the mountains for undergrad but I decided not to go because of the guy I was dating at the time (not the same guy). I have regretted this decision ever since and I feel like I'll regret not going this time because of my current boyfriend. I'm not happy with our relationship and I have told him so and that I want to move out. I honestly didn't expect him to care that I was leaving and I was shocked to see to what extent he was trying to keep me here. There is no question that if I go to grad school 2 hours away we won't stay together so we both agree that we should part ways now. Now that he is faced with me leaving he says that he could deal with me going to grad school some where locally but that isn't what I want and I feel like I will just be giving up again and not doing what I really want to. I wish I knew what decision was the right one. I honestly feel like I'm loosing my best friend. It isn't that I don't care for him it's that I'm just not happy with our relationship, I don't believe anything will ever change and I really don't want to settle for something less than I want again when it comes to school. I guess I just want some advice on my situation... Anyone been here before? Edited July 14, 2010 by confusedlover10
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