HelloGoodbye2010 Posted July 10, 2010 Posted July 10, 2010 (edited) If anyone could shed any light to this pickle of a relationship i would be very grateful! I started seeing this girl back in november...she added me on Facebook, talked and eventually swapped numbers...we then texted each other for quite some time maybe 2 months or so, in this time i never actually asked her out...then during a night out with all our friends she pulled a guy right infront of me. I did'nt text her then for a good few months due to thinking she was getting with that lad...she then texted me out the blue...we had a date and continued to see each other for a good 3 months (end of jan to middle of april) I had a bit of a drug problem at the time and she got quite upset about it... Our relationship eventually ended due to that, after going home for a while i got myself sorted, with my drug problem and sorted myself mentally aswell..i wasnt in a place to be having a relationship with her really. I didnt even love myself so i couldnt really ever love her. The problem i've had with her is i've never been able to express my feelings to her..she got really angry when she found out her best friend knew more about how much i felt for her than she did. I can understand this now but at the time i was in such a pickle...i did'nt know what i was feeling for her was love or lust. Several times when we've spoke it's seemed like she's waiting for me to tell her i love her, altho she has never said it to me...but she isnt the type of girl to say it first. When i came back from home i suggested doing something together...she said no and proceeded to tell me that she didnt want to hurt herself again. After that convosation tho...there was one weekend when we all met for a boozy night...ended up back at my friends house..came to the early hours and it was just me and her left...she actually just sat there waiting for me say something to her, to tell her how i feel about her...i didnt obviously, i completley choked! After about 30 mins she ran off to her mates house! She's sent subliminal messages on Facebook which i think were about me. Posting Anthony Hamilton - Do You Feel Me? If you've ever read the lyrics to that song then its pretty clear. She's an intelligent girl, everything she does is for a reason. The problem i have now is she just got with my best mate...i'm obviously pretty upset...they didnt spend anytime together before, its quite a sudden thing! Ive told her that she doesnt have to feel uncomfatable around me... When i questioned her about it tho...she said "Yeah..pretty random" and laughed. I really dont know what to think about the whole thing. She always replies to my texts and calls me back if i ring her...she always so soft with her voice when im speaking to her aswell. I've eventually found happiness in my life and i want her to be a part of it. Im scared that it might be too late tho! Edited July 10, 2010 by HelloGoodbye2010
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