i feel alone now

[johno100]

its a bit of a long story, so i will keep it short as possible. my best friend for the last 8 years, we had a relationship for 2 and a half years before it didnt work out for various reasons and i didnt see her for about 10 months but for some reason always missed her so i got back in touch and we became good friends.she never had much so i suppose my heart went out to her and always tried to look out for her as she made me feel happy as mates etc. that went on for a few years, then she moved away for work and i just seemed to be forgotten, i got the obligutary few phone calls etc, but i always kept in touch with her,i admit i still had a bit of a heart for her,but nothin major i enjoyed her friendship to want to spoil it, she moved back to the same area again for various reasons and i suppose things went back to what they were before we were mates. she did know i had a bit of a heart for her but i was always ok and it never really caused to many problems.i am really close to her grandson who is 8 and have been since he was born and i have been quite happy with our friendship. she would ring me for a natter and when i saw her i felt comfortable and we were mates. well here is the big problem, she has met someone, well a lot younger than her like 20 years nearly. i only found out this recently, she never mentioned it, before finding out i thought i had done something wrong as the phone calls stopped and things didnt seem right, and now i feel like its the same thing again im not wanted anymore. i have spoke to her about it and maybe a part of me was hurt because i did have a little heart for her, and now she says shes scared to be friends because of this, it never bothered her before. now it seems like our friendship has gone and its the one thing i always told her that it was more important to me , ive realised that since she has met someone im not jealous at all and i dont really want her that way im even happy for her. but know she thinks or says that i was only ever a good friend and helped her because i wanted more and its not true i did things as a friend to make her happy nothin else.i suppose i just feel a little empty as she always made me feel like my friendship meant something to her and it was important to her.and now she doesnt understand why im feeling down she thinks its because im jealous etc and im not, i just miss my friend its why im feeling so low and lonely and hoped that she would understand this, maybe i should move on and stop being foolish, maybe i was only ever a stop gap mate untill she found something or someone and now she doesnt need me.it still hurts tho i still feel like ive been cast aside like i never meant anything.Even tho i have told her all this and told her that i feel really lonely now and unhappy and probably just need a little reasurance about our friendship nothings changed i still get no phonecalls or any communication from her, maybe shes never really cared and ive just thrown my heart into a friendship that never really meant anythin to her

Edited July 10, 2010 by johno100

[swedishfish]

...you seem like a great guy.go thru the process of getting over this girl. then find a girl who will appreciate you, and give you back attention, love and happiness.

Their is a woman waiting for you out there.

[cld101]

I had experienced that once with one of my close friends but the nice thing about that is that we so in love with each other that we went our separate ways for 5 years, never had an open connection to each other. One day I saw her and I guess that she still feels the same way that is why she and I are now married. Its probably best if you move on from that sad part in your life, you will find your true mate and by then you will be happy...

[tonnywillgram]

yes i agree, its best to move on and find the person who will truly love you!

 

 

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