messymichelle Posted July 8, 2010 Posted July 8, 2010 here i am trying my hardest to stop myself from thinking about him and today is a bad day. as it gets closer to the weekend i find it soooo difficult. what does he see in her? why cant i let go? why am i still hoping for something thats not going to happen?? did i mean that little to him for him to just text and call(surposedly because of the kids) when he needs/wants something and no im not sleeping with him, even though i want to. how much more can i take?? i know that i will emerge a stronger person when i come through this but today i dont feel strong today all i want to do is cry and im sick of crying
wrencn Posted July 8, 2010 Posted July 8, 2010 here i am trying my hardest to stop myself from thinking about him and today is a bad day. as it gets closer to the weekend i find it soooo difficult. what does he see in her? why cant i let go? why am i still hoping for something thats not going to happen?? did i mean that little to him for him to just text and call(surposedly because of the kids) when he needs/wants something and no im not sleeping with him, even though i want to. how much more can i take?? i know that i will emerge a stronger person when i come through this but today i dont feel strong today all i want to do is cry and im sick of crying You have to be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to feel these emotions no matter how unpleasant. Be grateful that you actually have a heart and feelings unlike your ex. Today has been awful for me too. We had court today, (he charged me with assault- but I was found not guilty) and all I could think the whole time was "how the hell did we end up here?" Where/when did my life take such a turn for the worse. I'm angry and resentful! I'm laying in bed with the covers pulled up. And that's ok. I will be better eventually, just not today and I have to accept that. Hand in there.
whatadeer26 Posted July 8, 2010 Posted July 8, 2010 It is human nature to feel that way after rejection. For me it was and still is a huge hit to my ego and selfworth. I can't stand the thought of her having fun without me. I gave so much and made her my everything. In my situation she went through horrible family troubles recently and just lost trust in men and decided she wanted to be single (so I think). I have not been given an explaination as to why she wants her break. I struggle to not call and look at facebook everyday. I am in the exact same boat as you. I thought I'd share this because knowing you are not alone may make you feel better.
Author messymichelle Posted July 9, 2010 Author Posted July 9, 2010 thank you both i know that this might sound alittle wierd but im so glad im not alone in the way im feeling, today was much better i feel today that im taking back some control by not responding to anything that isnt related to the kids. im along way off from being comfortable but im taking one day at a time but its good to know that i can log on here for support. it means alot to me
wrencn Posted July 9, 2010 Posted July 9, 2010 thank you both i know that this might sound alittle wierd but im so glad im not alone in the way im feeling, today was much better i feel today that im taking back some control by not responding to anything that isnt related to the kids. im along way off from being comfortable but im taking one day at a time but its good to know that i can log on here for support. it means alot to me I'm always going to be here for you Michelle! Don't ever forget that! I hope you have a great weekend. Once you have the ability to PM give me a shout!
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