jen_r Posted July 3, 2010 Posted July 3, 2010 He's off having a blast this holiday weekend with friends and family while I am literally sitting in my house, alone, crying over everything. Every TV show makes me cry, some commercials make me cry, memories of us make me cry. I feel so pathetic, I have no one. I just got back from my friends house because i started feeling down and knew I was going to cry soon, so I specifically came home to cry. I feel like I have no control over myself. I keep hoping to hear from him, and hoping for him to say "wish you were here"...or "hows your weekend going?". But nothing. Why doesn't he care? He says he still loves me and cares about me, but he just shuts off his feelings?? I don't understand. I'm a f**king mess and I HATE it. I just want my baby back and to be wrapped up in his arms. This is such bull*****. I feel like a fool. /rant. I just needed to vent...
sloudrou Posted July 3, 2010 Posted July 3, 2010 Why do you "need someone"? Take a minute to think about it before you flame me. Why are you sitting at home alone? Take a minute to think about it before you flame me. Your ex is gone, over, finished. You're going to have to deal with it. Just get out of the house and go and do something. Do some exercise, go and see a movie, whatever. You'll feel better once you do it.
Author jen_r Posted July 3, 2010 Author Posted July 3, 2010 Why do you "need someone"? Take a minute to think about it before you flame me. Why are you sitting at home alone? Take a minute to think about it before you flame me. Your ex is gone, over, finished. You're going to have to deal with it. Just get out of the house and go and do something. Do some exercise, go and see a movie, whatever. You'll feel better once you do it. i dont NEED someone. I want someone. Not just someone, i want my baby. I'm sitting home alone because i can't be around people. I have to fake like im having fun and fake like I give a crap what people are saying. All that is running through my head is, I wish I was here with ***** instead. Like I said, I was out earlier and had to leave because I couldn't get him out of my head. This is awful.
YellowShark Posted July 3, 2010 Posted July 3, 2010 I'm a f**king mess and I HATE it. I just want my baby back and to be wrapped up in his arms. This is such bull*****. I feel like a fool. /rant. I just needed to vent... All that is running through my head is, I wish I was here with ***** instead. Why is he not there with you? I am guessing you've broken up. But why?
Author jen_r Posted July 3, 2010 Author Posted July 3, 2010 Why is he not there with you? I am guessing you've broken up. But why? His family is basically forbidding him to see me. Theres a longer story behind it, but thats the jist of it. A 25yr old is being told who to love...insane.
YellowShark Posted July 4, 2010 Posted July 4, 2010 His family is basically forbidding him to see me. Theres a longer story behind it, but thats the jist of it. A 25yr old is being told who to love...insane. Ahhhhhh... his family knows it's the 21st century and not the 10th century right? Seriously though, is is because of something you did? Or is it a religious issue?
Author jen_r Posted July 4, 2010 Author Posted July 4, 2010 Ahhhhhh... his family knows it's the 21st century and not the 10th century right? Seriously though, is is because of something you did? Or is it a religious issue? something I did, but nothing major. Its ridiculous. Seriously though, I'm not feeling so good right now. I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown and I don't know what I'm doing.
YellowShark Posted July 4, 2010 Posted July 4, 2010 something I did, but nothing major. Its ridiculous. If it is ridiculous then perhaps it can be fixed given time. Seriously though, I'm not feeling so good right now. I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown and I don't know what I'm doing. I know how you feel. I caught my girlfriend of seven years and a good friend cheating on me. He's married, and his wife is 8 months pregnant! I can totally relate with the "not feeling good right now," and the "nervous breakdown" part. Two people I cared for greatly and they were running around behind my back. I can barely wrap my head around the pregnancy angle. What the $#%! are they thinking? Are they insane? Feels like the elevator I am in dropped down the shaft. So hey, we both feel like total crap right now jen! I've lost my soulmate AND a good friend in one move. I am as heartbroken as can be.
Liketherest Posted July 9, 2010 Posted July 9, 2010 Your following your instincts, perhaps a little to strongly. It's natural to need someone , not to obsession. Take some time, but not to much to collect yourself, find something to do with your time. If you get busy, you'll look far more attractive than sitting at home. LTR
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