WheatusDirtBag Posted July 3, 2010 Posted July 3, 2010 and it didn't even phase him!! The guy that I like (that doesn't like me like that) is starting to get on my nerves. He keeps talking to me about other girls he likes and/or loves (after knowing that I like him) and it's been going on for awhile and I finally told him it makes me jealous. I told him this almost hoping it would turn him off completely to talking to me...it didn't. He told me "then I won't talk about these things anymore". After he said that, I felt bad and told him, no it's okay, and then he's just like "if you don't want to hear it, I respect it". That totally just made me like him more!! It didn't turn him off to talking to me...He STILL talks to me!! I am starting to get really fed up here. Not to the point where I am going to end the friendship, but getting to the point where I am just going to accept the fact that I really won't find anyone else ever again and I am trying so hard to shut off my emotions here, but he's the first thing I think of when I fall asleep and the first thing I think of when I wake up. I have never liked a guy like this before. At least not one that was attainable, and he made it clear he's not, at least in "that way". Well...drunkenly made it clear... Over IM. He keeps mostly everything to IM pretty much every night. It wouldn't be so bad if some of my other guy friends did the same, but he is the ONLY guy that has ever been a real friend and continued talking to me. ALL my other guy friends are more like...acquaintances. Not true friends. I would think less of him due to the fact that he hasn't invited me to hang out anywhere in awhile and keeping it all online, but I know him... and he falls in love with girls he's never even met before that he's only talked to...online. He spends a lot of his time doing stuff like that. He also considers texting the same thing as talking on the actual phone. So...yeah. I definitely don't agree...but like I said. He falls in love with girls he met online that he's never met in person. I really don't want to like him anymore and I am starting to get to that point...but again. I also don't like anyone else and I'm not exactly sure if I ever will. If I EVER end up with ANYONE... It will be because I settled... and I refuse to do that. (I feel like I am beating my head against a wall, in case you didn't get that yet, from all of those emoticons)
Author WheatusDirtBag Posted July 3, 2010 Author Posted July 3, 2010 Never mind about the emoticons....
Mutant Debutante Posted July 6, 2010 Posted July 6, 2010 You have to take responsibility for your own emotions, here, and do what you have to do to protect them and to move on. This guy knows you like him, and he doesn't return your feelings. Howevermuch you wish for it, it wasn't meant to be. You already know you have to separate yourself from him to give yourself the space to recover and regroup, you just don't want to do it because it's hard. But the way you're living right now is hard, too. You're making yourself miserable over smoke and mirrors. He's not as great as you think he is. He's emotionally immature and using you for validation. It will take a while to get over this but you will find somebody better, and you'll look back at this and wonder what you were thinking. This has happened to almost all of us, trust. And you will feel all of these things again--love, hurt, confusion, hope, disappointment, excitement, lust, anxiety, pain, contentment, joy--over and over and over again, with different relationships. It's life.
Mutant Debutante Posted July 7, 2010 Posted July 7, 2010 Unfortunately, I've chosen the road of remaining friends with him and hoping and praying he changes his mind. I hope you are the type who learns from their mistakes. Good luck with this choice.
Lady vs Panda Posted July 7, 2010 Posted July 7, 2010 You are creating your own prison. The door is open but you refuse to see it. That's sad.
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