Div Posted July 1, 2010 Posted July 1, 2010 well I don't know why, but I woke up today feeling like CRAP! I've been broken up for 6 weeks now and Ive progressed well (30 days nc), but this morning i felt like someone had wrenched my gut out and I was expeiencing physical pain in reaction to my emotions. I miss who she used to be so much and I hate who she has become. She's on holiday now with a whole bunch of other girls single guys and probably having an amazing time, while I'm stuck in this rut and so depressed. I feel so used.
GrayClouds Posted July 1, 2010 Posted July 1, 2010 I find that those feel like hell out of no where days is just another bit more letting go. Instead the grieving be continuous it come off in chunks. Go for a walk, have a good meal, get a good night sleep, tomorrow will be better.
LoveTruthChaos Posted July 1, 2010 Posted July 1, 2010 You might be entering an anger stage. I entered my third anger stage at about week 6 or 7, and it lasted 3 weeks (till a few days ago) And it was the worst one yet. Just let it all out, you'll feel much much better later!
YellowShark Posted July 1, 2010 Posted July 1, 2010 Having a bad day too. I also miss who she used to be and I hate who she has become. I was OK for most of the week and then today I was sitting having a Starbucks on the patio and started sobbing. It's been 4-and-a-bit weeks of NC. (She cheated on me with a now-ex-friend.) All I can say is you're not alone Div, and I also hope I will feel better tomorrow. Chin up!
IfiKnewThen Posted July 1, 2010 Posted July 1, 2010 I am with Div..only i am depressed everyday thanks to him being someone i no longer know but i still blame myself which is doubly worse hang in there
Author Div Posted July 2, 2010 Author Posted July 2, 2010 As was suggested, I was much calmer today. The emotions most definitely come in waves of an unpredictable length. Though I have to say, No Contact has helped me so much in the last month. It's almost like the brain goes through all of your thoughts and memories and neutralise's the emotion in them. I can go back and think of the memories that had me in such a rut yesterday and feel indifferent towards them. Slowly, and gradually, I am neutralizing my past relationship in my mind and soul. If I was not in NC, my mind would constantly have new information to neutralize, but as it doesn't things slowwwwly get easier. Only by nano-bits. But it does
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