State Posted June 30, 2010 Posted June 30, 2010 I found this post on the forum : "OK, so basically I'd been with a girl for three months, and during that time we'd basically fallen intensely and passionately in love. Spent several days a week at her house, went out all the time, slept over continually, basically we saw each other absolutely tons. She was always quite full-on, while I (this was actually my first relationship, I'm 23) was a bit reserved and trying to take things slowly. Long story short, I became concerned that she wanted more out of this relationship than I did (she's 26 and had discussed wanting kids by 30, she wanted me to move out of my folks' place- not in with her, just away from them, and she wanted to know every little thing going on inside my head, even the private stuff), and I finally basically said "I don't think we can go any further with this." Funnily enough, I took it far worse than she did, I was crying and gutted, where she was a little upset but kept telling me she was fine and kept worrying about me. Thing is, the pain's not getting easier. I know about this no-contact rule and I had to implement it (she wanted to go out to an event as 'friends' a few days after the breakup, and I had to tell her I just wasn't ready for it), but to be honest I think all that's done is make me want to talk to her more and more. I know we don't have a future together, I'm not ready for what she wants, but I love her and I miss her and I wish I didn't have to do this. I try to remind myself it's for both of our own goods (and that's another reason I broke up with her, so I didn't lead her along or disappoint her) but that doesn't help. I can't sleep properly, and I'm having weird mood swings... one moment I'm cool calm and fine, and the next I'm breaking down and having to keep myself from calling her and seeing how she is. I know I can't get back with her, it would just be cruel to both of us, but I hate this so much..." This post is from more than a year ago, I couldn't write my post any better but it's exactly the same situation, except I went out with her for 5 months and the age difference was bigger (she was 31, I'm 24). Also, now she doesn't even want to hang out with me. I have 2 questions: 1) Did I do the right thing or should I have taken the plunge and seen where it went (even though I didn't see any way it could have worked out)? 2) The user who posted this post : shurikenlj ; if you're still out there, how does this story end???
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